To me, breaking up with someone isn’t the hardest part but missing them and recalling your memories is one of the most painful part. Nonetheless, you have to ask yourself if the two of you were to get back together, would it change anything? One of the hardest thing in the world to do is to change someone because it was almost Impossible to accomplish. If it was for someone else, I guessed they would say it wouldn’t be so hard, at least he asked for forgiveness, why are you so cruel to not accept it? First of all, I accepted his apology that I thought wasn’t necessary. We broke up because he made up his mind that he was not a match for me, that he was too poor compared to me, that I would have gone through a lot of troubles being with him. He made it seem so clear that his decision was set and that he would never turn back to me. After reading all those words through texts, I just sat there on my bed hoping that wasn’t true, that it was all a dream, that after I woke up everything will be okay again. I did not shed any tear because I couldn’t believe that those words could came out of the mouth of the person who told me that he would always loves me, no matter what happened he would never leave me, that I was his last love if not for me, he would rather die alone. I guessed those were just empty words, I couldn’t see his true heart then because I was so lost in the idea that I finally met someone who would accept me at my worst. I forgot every lessons I have took along the way because I guessed I was in love. I think after writing all of this, I could state clearly why I reject his offer to get back together. I would rather be alone for the time being and maybe in the future date someone who at least on the same level as me or someone who wouldn’t feel sorry for themselves every single seconds. I don’t need to be with someone who put the blame on my family who haven’t rejecting him yet and kept feeling bad for himself instead of getting his up to do something about his own life. I may miss him a lot but that doesn’t mean I have to be with him, I don’t like repeating mistakes and I’m for sure not going to drive that wreck car again, it was already beat up beyond fix. I may blame myself for all the wrong things in my past relationships but I’m a different person now, so whatever happened, things will fall into place with time, my heart will heal with time.