There it goes again.

It is back. The emptyness, the irritation, the fear, the ugly truth, everything is back. I feel like I am in middle of a war with my ownself. It is such an irritating thing that these days I snap at every little thing. I keep fighting with people around me just because things didn't go the way I planned. It feels like everyone is ganging up on me. Whatever I say, they counter me back saying that I am the one who is wrong. Why am I always pointed out for being insensetive to things?

Don't they see that even the others are doing the same mistake and yet why am I the only one getting punished? Why is that I am the only one being brought in the midlde of all the mess and being pointed at by everyone? Why is it that the others who did the same thing lying back and facing nothing? And when I point at the others, I am the one getting scolded more? Like wth? Why do I have to be the one?

Or is it that I am always wrong? Am I the one who is always wrong? Am I that sensitive to truth that I am seeing bunch of lies and believing them to be truth? Or am I being too negative thinking that the other people are getting away for things they did wrong?

I don't know any longer I am just hating every second of it.

I wish this would end soon. The war with myself.

And as if this stuff is not enough, my never ending chain of exams never ends. I see no end to my tests and college stuff. God I hope this all soon ends. I am fed up of everything.

Thank you for reading. You can just ignore this. I just feel tired of everything, that's all.

Btw, stay safe.

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buriedphoenix #1
*sad face*
There's one thing that important to remember, people don't like their mistakes pointed out by other, esp when they think they are in the right and clearly aren't. It's your right to point bull out, but if they don't see it? Can't help it. I know it's easier to say to look for more positive friends in your life, but it ain't as easy tho. You know where to find me too rant to.

And exams !
ShinyVV #2
You are very wrong about thinking negatively..Honey people will say everything and anything about you or to you ,it's you who should learn how to tackle them and stay strong in front of them..i know how it feels, trust me .But hun the world is not a sweet, happy place..you will have to fight your fears and fight for yourself, you will have to prove yourself million times to the same bunch of people..And trust me when i saw i hate clg stuff and exams, almost everyone does..But we are the fighters of our lives, we need to fight to survive in this harsh, non-forgiving world..So stay with me plz, you are a great friend and great support system for me, i trust you and i guess you know that and i just want you to open up with me or atleast share these things..And i love you darling, don't think too much about people who don't think before blurting out those harsh words..What matters is how you see yourself..so honey stop thinking about them bcz they will only cause you pain and regret..So don't take them srsly and just think of them as some obstacles in your path.
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