I want to just... stop
All I asked was for some peace, for some happiness. I know I laugh but the moment it ends I feel like crying. I don't know. I am scared of everything I am sad because of everything. I feel like ending everything. I feel like just...I don't know. I just want everything to stop. I want to just run away and hide in a place where no one knows me, no one would judge me, no one will bother me, no one will care about what I do, what I wear, what I eat. Where I won't be scared that people are looking at me. Where I am not scared of travelling in public transport, without feeling self concious. Where I won't judge myself, where I can respect myself. Somewhere I don't have to please someone. Somewhere I don't have to think about others opinion and think about what I like, even if what I like is bad, or doesn't looks good, or is cheap, or is deformed, but something I and only I like. I really want to, but I cannot. I want to rest I want to stop. At some point even my life.
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