so i met a guy on league shortly after my breakup, we stayed league buddies for the most part at the beginning. one day on my ex's birthday i went to popeyes because i was feeling this tight clenching in my heart. Afterwards i just felt like i had to talk to someone, and this guy was the only one checking up on me to see if im okay. so i messaged him and said i feel pain. he was like "who bullied you?" i told him about my ex and he said he was going through something similar. he wanted to get away from it all and move to Canada. I'm like "wow i live in Canada". So he said it's better if we voicechatted and we did, he had this awkward but sad laugh that really attracted me at first. Hearing about the problems that he was experiencing made me forget about my own. He was so similar to me and we talked about astrology too, we figured out that we're both leos. We stayed the rest of the night awake talking on voicechat and he said I'm the only one he ever shared this much detail about his life to, because there were no reprecussions (a stranger on the internet). 

I kind of started to have a crush on him and most nights, we would just voicechat. He looked through my pictures that i sent him and we even videochatted so we knew what the other looked like I said he was handsome. He said I was legit one of the prettiest girls he's ever seen, this was the second time he saw someone with my kind of face..and he even said i'm prettier than his last ex. He like beautiful things, pretty girls are like looking at a pretty scenery.. so I tried to control my jealous side whenever he talked about beauty of others.  I've always had a jealous streak from my last relationship and it's something i'm working hard to control, he taught me about trust and it was absolutely required for this new relationship to work.So i tried and it put my mind at ease, and he has never gotten jealous with me either which was very refreshing.

We had rough patches here and there, he has this issue where he blocks me and tells me not to talk to him (when he's in a bad mood or when we get in a fight). I have this issue of clinging on, i said i really want to know what's wrong and how we can make it work together. He has wanted to leave mutiple times (including when he thinks about his ex and he started to feel hatred towards but admits to still loving). I told him to forgive, if you love the person then you forgive them (for your own peace of mind). He tells me that I'm so soft like a cushion when he gets angry and becomes negative, I absorb everything. He said he always thought his dream girl would be someone who could handle his harsh words, but i'm really different from all the other girls that he's dated. He promised to be the "boyfriend" and he would stop blocking me. He has really made an effort and it shows. There was a time where i tried to avoid thinking about him because of all the negativity, but i really have come to love him