my life in words...

okay...dont know who has been keeping up with my life right now...but...regardless, to those that care, thank you so much (technically like heheWiin, trixie eonni (i cant remember ur username TT) ime eonni and others...)...

but...haha...so far ive only told trixie eonni this but, yeahh...someone told me that i will never ever end up getting married ^^ when i first read that message this morning, i totally smiled but i didnt have the heart to finish reading it because i know it was going to hurt me, mentally, so i deleted it...

its my ex-'s friends...none of them think about me. i feel like im the one who got hurt yet in their eyes, hes the one thats innocent...is it all my fault??? i hurt him yes, by breaking up with him, blocking and deleting him on facebook but that isnt my fault!!! i loved him and he was the one that said that he never liked me anymore as a friend...it hurts like it never had before...even my first ex, he didn't hurt me as much as this one did...

and regarding my username, because i made the mistake of telling him about this account, i think he has gone and told his friends so now, ive already had two "users" bash and put hateful comments on my wall...to be honest, this is the first times its ever happened to me...obviously im not the first however, i dont want to be like other users who just leave this site because i love this site too much to leave and i love the fanfics and users here so much it hurts so i think im just going to change my username to make it hard for them to find me...

when i officially change it, ill let you guys know and to my best friends on this site, ill post on your wall specifically ^^

one more thing, i want everyone here's honest opinion. i dont want anyone to feel like they have to lie to me. if you feel that you don't want to lie (please dont ><) you can post your answer to me wall on private and i swear i won't tell anyone what you said ^^

1. do you think im a good friend? why? what makes you think so/

2. do you think im a bad or good girlfriend? why or why not?

i really would like to know...because after this, i feel like im a bad friend AND a bad girlfriend...ha...ha...

anyways, thank you all, even though most of you dont talk to me much anymore, im still thankfully that at least your still here and i hope none of my dongsaengs and eonni's alike never experience something like what im experiencing right now ^^ i want everyone around me to lead a non-bashed-life ^^ what they deserve~ me...not so much hahaha~ ^^

xxx

musicISme

ps. i plan on changing my username to something like betrayedhatred hahahaha~ maybe, maybe not ^^

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Miss_Logical #1 Mar 30, 2011 12:45:50

2. if u're a good or bad girfriend? like ur friends said, nobody is perfect so obviously no girls can be the 'perfect' girlfriend... and besides that, u'll learn how to deal with relationships with time and experience, it's not as if there's a book named 'How to be a good girlfriend...' LOL but i'm sure, u're not the type of girl who won't care about the other one but the contrary ^^ so as long as ur feelings for the one u'll date r sincere, i'm sure u'll always find a way to make him happy or if not, u'll just end up bickering with him haha like every couples on this Earth ^^ 
 
Sorry if it's long but u know me :P and what i love about u is that I don't need to drop by ur profile to know if ure fine or not since u're writing ur feelings on ur blog ^^ otherwise i would have spammed ur wall to check on u even if it's to say some short things (even if i'm damn busy LOL) XD so be glad about it haha 
 
SO cheer up ^^ all ur friends r supporting u and obviously THE ONE WHO CARES! if not, just tell them : GO TO HELL ♥ don't bother urself with people's opinion, what's the most important is urs not theirs... so u need to think positively of what happened because every experiences either bad or good will only make us stronger if we have the will to move on! SO FIGHTING Sophh!! 
 
ps : changing ur username *sigh* just change it to something nice that looks like u haha don't do like me with my other account XD and an advice, don't change ur username when u're sad or u'll end up having a cold username, i'm talking from exprience! 
 
and LASTLY! I LOVE UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU AND I MISSSSSSS UUUUUUU SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUUUUUUUUUUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ♥♥♥♥

Miss_Logical #2 Mar 30, 2011 12:45:41

ok back lol since i checked my messages the morning before going to uni.. 
1. the people who r bashing u for this r so childish >.> as if what u did wasn't normal, he hurt you so obviously you blocked him because u didn't want to be more hurt.. so it's a normal reaction and why aren't u blocking the s who r bashing u? i bet by private messages or ur friends would have bash them and it would end up being a war LOL just ignore them, they're not worth it, seriously.. 
 
2. if u're a good friend? haha seriously? wow, musy u must be in a really gloomy mood, right? *big hugs* ♥ I'm asking the same question when i'm depressed xD and u know already that haha since i'll even think of deleting all my net accounts and simply disappear LOL but i'll still answer u ^^ so yeah, u're a great friend!! each time, i'm chatting with u, i feel at ease and i don't have those awkward convos XD and we're talking about so many topics that sometimes both of us r getting lost in the topic LOL just wait until i'll come back and we'll chat like before XD and u're always here to cheer ur friends up, even willing to listen to their problems... and u're actually caring about them since u're keeping touch with them as much as u can, even if it's been a long time, no? i'm sure, u'll drop by their profile saying 'hi i miss u...' no? XD so don't worry about it ^^ if u were a bad friend, i would have kick u a long time ago :P

baek-yeol-soo #3 Mar 30, 2011 04:30:39

Hey, don't worry about things like that alright? You're not the one being a bad friend! I can't say how you're like as a girlfriend but he was obviously the one hurting you and treating you badly so it's not your fault at all! :( Just ignore those childish people!!

ChristalSJ #4 Mar 30, 2011 04:27:08

1. do you think im a good friend? why? what makes you think so/ 
Yes, you are so friendly and nice to everyone.. so how on earth you are NOT a good friend?! 
 
2. do you think im a bad or good girlfriend? why or why not? 
Well, this question.. I am not sure.. since I have never dated in my entire 18 years of pathetic life.. But I am sure you are good girlfriend :) Every girl is a good girlfriend. It only depends on how the guy views it. Guys have different views of how their girlfriend should be like. Like how we,girls have our ideal type of boyfriend. :) 
 
Cheer up, arraso? 
Love ya~

Miss_Logical #5 Mar 30, 2011 01:33:56

i''ll answer u this evening even though u already know my answers *big hugs*

angelica-swagirl #6 Mar 29, 2011 21:28:41

Of course you love me eonni ;) 
Seriously...two users bashing ur wall =.= -sigh- ignore them okie you have us aff users 
actually if the same thing happened to me i would block him too cuz i wouldnt want to talk to him trust me i went through it a few times 
1) OF COURSE YOUR A GOOD FRIEND....well not a good friend a beyond amazing friend because you make me smile whenever i talk to you you make amazing FF..err i hate doing this cuz i at describing my friends XD but i love you~ ^^ 
2) i agree with the user below no one can be a perfect girlfriend. but what you did is probably what other girls would do...er i think >< 
Ehhhh? your changing your username -pouts- nah it's okay i dont really mind i'll change mine when i have enough karma XD...i feel like a stalker 
....im no help am i =3=

water_lilly #7 Mar 29, 2011 19:02:56

1. do you think im a good friend? why? what makes you think so 
You're an awesome friend! You're really fun to talk to and have an easy-going nature that makes me smile! :D. But to the a good friend, you have to be trusted, and show trust. And I'm sure you've got lots of that ^^. 
 
2. do you think im a bad or good girlfriend? why or why not? 
I durno about this XD. No one can be the 'perfect' girlfriend. There'll be some flaws. The relationship won't be a relationship without occasional fights. Its what happens after (when you make up) that makes you stronger. And to be a bad girlfriend? That would either be a slacker or someone who doesn't really care. So technically, you're not a bad girlfriend. You truly loved him right?? 
 
- wahh, been so lonooong since I've talked to you XD.