Hello. It's been a while.

Before I explain about my past year, I need to say this first. Losing Jonghyun affected me in a big way. It threw me out of Kpop. To this day I still can't listen to SHINee. I haven't been anticipating any comebacks, nor have I been listening to new songs. My repeated playlist consists of no Kpop, spare the occasional Kindie song. I think the fantasy of it wore off on me.

I feel like I need to apologise, but at the same time I took a break from something that I needed a break from, and we as humans shouldn't be sorry for that.

I am sorry for leaving my stories hanging for so long though, it was never my intention to leave them unfinished and leave you, the readers, left without an ending. That's the worst. I hate reading stories and you find out the author hasn't updated them in like 3 years. It's disappointing. 

And I'm doing the very thing that I hate.

I've changed over the past year or so, and I feel weird about writing about actual human beings and throwing them in imaginary love plots to entertain myself.

I love writing, I don't think that will ever change, but I don't think I can bring myself to write fanfiction any more. 

Thank you all for supporting me, for providing me with smiles and hope and the opportunity to write for you all. I really, truly appreciate it. And I'm sorry that I've disappointed you all.

I got a job. It in a big way. Mentally scarred me for the rest of my life and made me ill. So I quit. Then I got another job. I tried to grow up and be an adult. I got a haircut. I got a girlfriend. That's an excitng part. I came out to my family. To a few of my friends. I almost forgot about this site, this place where I had spent so many of my hours. And I was tempted to just push it to the back of my mind,  yet again. But I've already been so unfair to my readers and I had to say something.

This is a thank you note. And an apology letter. And a farewell, for now.

Who knows if I'll finish the stories for the sake of it. Or if I'll get over my distaste for writing fanfiction, or... whatever. But for now, I'm not planning on writing more kpop fanfiction. I'm sorry. And thank you.