My cousin and my sister are talking about adulting earlier. My cousin said that adulting is hard, working will be your priority. Love will be the last thing you'll ever want because fake love exist. You'll realize it over and over until one day you will just give up. 

My sister agreed and said it was the last thing she wanted. She also said that the hardest part of adulting for her is, fake friends. She said that they are everywhere but once you found some true friends everything will be easier.

The talk went on until my cousin decided to ask me. "How about you? What's the hardest part of adulting for you?" I looked at him and hesitates to answer because first of all, he's a man he might not understand and second, we are not that close since we didn't see each other for over a decade. He looked at me waiting for answers. 

"Half-baked love" I answered. My sister laughed clearly thinking I was joking. To avoid some awkwardness I just laughed too. I looked at my cousin and waiting him to laugh or tell me that I'm too deep but he didn't. "True" he said and pats my shoulder.

"Isn't fake love more painful?" My sister who is the youngest asked. "No, half-baked love is more painful because it will make you feel loved, it will make you feel that you are important, it will make you feel happy, but then suddenly it will disappear. They will disappear and then that's where you'll realize why did they gave you half baked love and that's because they love someone other than you. What makes it more painful is that, it didn't only happen to relationships but also friendships" 

My best friend and I grew apart because of a half baked love. I loved her with all my heart that I would choose her over my girlfriend or my boyfriend since she's been the one with me right from the start. She's the one who saw every side of me that not even my family saw. She's like my sister that I would really fight any men who would break her heart and I really did, to her exes and she saw that. But despite all of these, she chose to be with her boyfriend who does nothing but to hurt her. I'm not even asking her to chose between me and her boyfriend all I want is some time to hang out with her but everytime I ask her she decline by saying she's busy with work but her posts on social media tells otherwise, she's hanging out with her boyfriend. I'm not mad at her but I was just so disappointed. She does it multiple times then recently I decided to just drop her. No explanations, no talks, no calls, I just dropped her and that's the moment I realized that sometimes you really need to drop some important people in your life specially when they can't even gave you the importance you gave them. That's life, that's adulting.