There's 1,270 days left until I leave.

Some of you may be thinking that it's such a long time from now but personally, I think that that's a very short time. Those days are not enough to reconcile with the people in my life or to make amends. Those days are not enough to forgive or to apologize.

2018 certainly changed my life. I think that there were many downs than there were ups but I have no regrets. I lose some people but I am grateful to have gained more than I have lost. Although it was one of the hardest years in my life, I'm grateful because it made me stronger. It made me realize my worth and my importance. I learned to give and I have also learned to take. I've learned to stop people from taking advanatge of me and last but not the least, I've learned that it's okay to lose and that it's completely fine to lose some people. It may sound very self-centered but all my life, I've always given. It's what my parents taught me, always give. Give hope, give love, give courage, give everything that you can. However, it was only last year that I learned something very important. Sometimes, you have to give to yourself as well. At the end of the day, you're still the important one. This is something that I guess I struggled with.

As I turn my back on 2018 and face 2019 head on, I made a big decision. I've decided to let go of my life here where I currently live after college and move to a completely different place. I don't know when I'll come back or if I ever will. It's still a few years from now so I'll be spending the next few years planning. Besides, I already started something here and so I might as well just finish it before I leave. I'll use the next few years to fix everything back here until the day comes when I'm ready to leave.