Where have I been.

Wow it’s been a long time right. It been almost a year since I left aff…. I even turned 5 years here…. WWOOOWWW I can’t believe it…. I'm such an awful author... But for those who read my stories.... Yes I am working on them. Mainly editing them since I just feel like they can be better. But yes I am working on them periodically since I have been really busy and you shall see why...

Well to begin… where have I been… well there has been so many changes to my personal life. And a lot of things have turned for the better.

When I last left aff I was actually going through a very dark time. I haven’t been so deep in my inner demons in years. So I did go seek some help but I couldn’t go through with it. For my personal selfishness and blah, blah blah.

Not to dwell too much on that subject as a quick summary my mom was diagnosed with cancer about a year ago. And she had a few options and after getting even more tests done we as a family decided to make a choice. And also around that time we had lost Jonghyun. So I was already not in a good mindset. I was scared of losing my mom and I lost someone who was a light of my life when there was no way out.

But something very special happened my family. We got a new addition my family. My mom had the option to go through chemo, wait for a donor…. Or have a baby. Science really is such an amazing thing… The baby was going to donate her blood cells to my mom and my mom in returned wanted to nurture the little creature that saved her life….

So now I have this new light in my life and she is now almost 5 months old. I have a baby sister her name is Camila… I came up with the name heheheh and my brother came up with her middle name… Her middle name is Jenissi… (And if there is anyone who knows where the name come from we are best friends now..)

But to continue I am in a place where I am okay. Where I feel calm with my emotions and seeing my baby sister smile every day warms my heart and soul. Even though it bothers me to my core when she doesn’t want to sleep and she is clearly tired!

But other than the new addition of the baby and dealing with my mental issues… Ive been doing okay…. Well not okay okay since  MY DOOJOONIE AND HYUNSEUNGIE HAVE LEFT FOR THE MILITARY AND I HAVE BEEN CRYING SO MUCH LIKE MY DOO GOT A PROPER GOODBYE AND ING CUBE DID NOTHING FOR MY SEUNGIE THOSE ING BASTERDS

I KNOW I SAID I WAS OKAY BUT MY B2UTY HEART IS DYING AND SEOBIE AND JUNHYUNG ARE NEXT IN LINE AND AND AND *UGLY CRIES*

I’m pissed… and I’m here thinking cube has changed bull. But no I am not going to rant about cube I have been doing it for years now.

Anddddd to end this…. Have I gone to any concert yet? Since I know a few of you enjoy my concert blogs…

YES I DID!

I kept tradition and went to Kcon NY 2018! MEANING I GOT TO SEE THE LEGENDS THE KINGS

SUPER JUNIORRRRRRRRRRRR!!

AND DID I DIE?
YOU DARN RIGHT I DID!
DID I GET ANY FAN INTERACTION?
YOU ARE CORRECT! MR LEE DONGHAE’S HOLY HAND TOUCHED MINE

YES YOU HEARD ME RIGHT MR. LEE DONHAE TOUCHED THIS HAND AHHHHHHHHH AND IT WAS JUST PURE LUCK!

Now my question is would anyone like to read my kcon 2018 blog. I ask because I don’t have many fancams… This year I kind of just let my memory capture… and well my camera didn’t like where i was seated… But anywho this year i did go to BOTH nights. So I saw my loves exid. My ex babys pentagon…. Red Velvet…. Bad boy is my guily please and yes NCT 127

NCT IS RUINING MY LIFE SO CAN SOMEONE COME GET JOHNNY AND TELL HIM TO LEAVE MY HEART ALONE I DONT NEED ANOTHER BIAS LIKE NO NO… NOOOOOOOO

But yeah should I write a concert blog even if there won’t be many videos?