My insecurities are crawling back to me again

My throat is clogging up with emotions but I can't let them out

Cause it'll only make me look silly, a crybaby.

I've learnt not to cry easily, 

I've learnt to hide my emotions well

But it's tiring my soul out

Laughing has become a pain now but I'm still laughing like the happiest person on earth

Cause the tears don't come out anymore and I've realised too late that my emotions have all been messed up

I've forgot how to cry because I've been laughing too much.

                                 ------- CHAITY