hey guys, it have been a long um what is the suitable word that i can use this time? maybe a little 'trip' for me, i've been gone for a hella long time.

im not sure whether any of you will read this. life have been really to me. i got crumbled and been crashed deeply by the world that seeem to betray me.

ive lost my gut to live on my own life. i always think this is already the end of my story. i feel really sad that im once a writer who forgot his own objective.

i feel really bad that my hand stop to hold the pen and my nose started to forget that how nice it was, the smell of paper, the smell of new page of a books. 

*my little sister saw me typing this and she ask 'ey, you can't smell the typing on the computer though?' aish that little lamb, cant even stand my sentimental feeling*

i can't say that im completely recover with all of this, i just hope that the desperate feeling to write, will bloom again deep in my heart. pray for me. pray.