I've told some of you that I'll be starting work soon and recently I've been busy finishing up the official paperwork and other preparations. At the same time I'm trying to wrap up my job as a research assistant and send the researcher her post-test data....... so i'm draineddd ~_~ But all that is progressing well so I just have to it up and do it.

What's bugging me at the moment is that I'm trying to rent a place near work and the friends that I've initially planned to rent together has made other plans :( I did try to find rooms to rent instead but the places I've checked out was just terrible like eeeugghhh. It'll be hard for me to save up if a huge chunk of my salary is just for rent.

This is the first real job that I have since all my life i've just been studying. It's been hard for me to sleep the past few weeks since i'm overthinking of every possibility that can go wrong. Intern doctors have to work like crazy for 2 years until they become official medical officers. It's just the way things work and i've really come to terms with that.

What I'm afraid of is being the cause of a patient dying. Losing a patient is inevitable in this line of work but i don't know how i'll handle it :(