Hello everyone! 

I'm not sure anyone would read this, but if you are, know that I am extremely grateful! 

Before (or after) you read this, I want you to check out this Kai Fanfic written by Kaiwaiitaesu, and the note the writer put on her last update, this will be mainly about it.

Just like how a new chapter of your favorite fanfiction can make your day, or even week if you like it that much...a small comment, upvote or any sort of support would make us, writers, feel better about ourselves... I am not asking for comments and upvotes, I am long past that phase, but I would appreciate a nice word of encouragement, a comment about the grammar mistakes I made, or a personal theory about the following chapter, instead of the usual "Please update!" that I see frequently, I get that you are all curious about what will happen next, but like how a chapter makes you happy, our readers' reaction makes us even more happy! I swear to god every time I get a comment I go on all social media I have and start telling my friends about how cute, precise, or smart someone in a comment was...

As a writer, I find myself facing many challenges every day, even though I don't update very often, which I am super sorry about... But then thing is, I write more than just fanfics, even though I am only publishing chapters of one Bang Yongguk fanfic, for the time being. I might seem like I only have that one story to worry about, but that's not even close to the truth! Before starting in AFF, I had many fanfics on wattpad, and some weren't even kpop fanfics, but short stories that I decided to write and convey secret messages through that I never had the courage to say out loud. Unpublishing the rest of my fanfics was a huge decision I had to make. It was undeniably hard, but after seriously thinking about it, I decided to publish one thing at the time. 

Since English is barely my third (not even my second) language, I had to improve my writing A LOT! like seriously, I cringe whenever I remember the way I used to write, and I feel bad for whoever read my old stories... But aside from improving my horrible English, I also have a life! and so do all other "author-nims" out there, and even though almost no one pointed this out before, I was reading a Kai fanfics that I enjoy a lot, and in the last update the author put, she pointed out some notes that really got me kinda emotional... I wish all my readers (and other readers) just go read that small paragraph and really think about how a writer is not JUST a writer, not JUST a person who spends their time laying in bed and writing stories like it's the easiest thing in the world. 

We have lives too, we have school, work, families, relationships, concerns, and problems, and we too, by the end of the day, stare up at our room ceiling and wonder if we're doing the right thing in life. So please...be more understanding and patient, I assure you that we would update every single day if only we had the time and energy to do so. 

Writing is very important to us, so please don't take it so lightly...

thank you for reading! and thank you @Kaiwaiitaesu for the beautiful words you gifted us. 

Douz12a.