I have come to a conclusion that I do miss writing and finally i can say that I am indeed writing again.  It's a slow process since my brain doesn't get ideas as fast i used to before.  Being in a long hiatus is kind of bummed, because I don't get any ideas to write.  But when I do, it always doesn't go the way I wanted them to....so in the end, I just gave up.  You shouldn't gave up on something you loved to do, not even for a second.  But in some circumstances, that it can't be avoid, you have to do what you have to do.  I can't say that I'm 100% better but I'm getting there, slowly.