Hello everyone. It's been awhile, hasn't it?

I wish I was writing to you under better circumstances, but I think everybody in the kpop community by now has heard of the terrible tragedy that happened the other day...

We lost an incredible, wonderful artist and beautiful soul far too soon.

Jonghyun was an amazing person, a talented artist, and always reminded us that it was okay not to be okay sometimes. He helped me (and many others) out of difficult times in our lives. Words cannot truly express how thankful I am now and always will be for the light he managed to shine on everyone.

For those of you who have been subscribed to me for awhile (though I'm not sure why, considering I'm terrible at uploading, let alone finishing things I start), you may know that I had written a story roughly 5 years ago titled "To Whom It May Concern." It was a SHINee AU written from the perspective of Jonghyun and hinted at suicide. I want to be clear, however, that this was not a story I just wrote for fun. I originally wrote it in order to touch upon things that I wanted to talk about; things that can be very hard to talk about (ex: abuse, homophobia, depression, and suicide) but effect so many people every single day. Including myself. I know not many people had viewed the story, but someone had recently (within the past 3 weeks) subscribed to it and brought it to the forefront of my attention once again. 

So, in light of the recent tragedy, the story has gone into an unlisted mode until I can transfer it to another file and eventually delete it entirely from this page.

Anyone who happened to read it after the news broke, I apologize. I wanted to unlist it sooner, but was having problems logging into my page. I want to apologize to anybody that possibly read it and felt saddened or offended that I had the material still posted even after the horrible news had gotten out. It was never my intention to hurt or offend anybody. I love SHINee with all my heart; a heart which is absolutely shattered with the news of Jonghyun's passing. I never could have predicted this would happen in a million years. God, I never wanted to believe it to be possible.

I want to remind everyone out there that your lives are worth it. You're worth it. If things are hard, please. Don't hesitate to reach out to somebody. Talk to somebody. Below, I will be listing numbers for suicide hotlines around the world.

Stay safe, everyone. And in case nobody told you today:

You're loved.

You're worth it.

You're doing so well.

Stay strong everybody. ♥

Rest in Peace, Kim Jonghyun. Shawols and SHINee love you now and forever.

You did well, Jonghyun. ♥

-Emptypuppet21

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