It was night time in my place when the news came up. I saw a tweet saying something like 'Goodbye Jonghyun', 'it was nice seeing you on stage', 'you're the brightest star even you're not here anymore' those tweets got me like... what the fck? What's happening? Is this a scandal? Is he having drama? Or is something is up... then it hits me. It can't be true, I thought to myself so I started to search up to see if those are real or just a fake and troll news but then his name was trending everywhere. I asked myself once again, is it really true?

There's a lot of sides that time, my hands are trembling while reading the news and tweets; everyone's griefing while I wait for more legit news-- I'm hoping that it's not true, I was in denial. I'm not a shawol for a very long time, I just started to support them back in 2015 when I entered K-pop world. Set aside that title of being a Shawol/a fan of Shinee-- I'm sad because a person just died from pain and emotional stress. I read that he seek for help but doctors blamed him even more for what he's suffering for. It's really sad to think that way, they could have saved him, he should have at least have a longer life but... it didn't turn out that way.

I don't know the whole story, we don't know everything to judge anything that just happened. We only knew parts of it and the fact that he ended his life because of depression that drowns him-- let's know our places and just stick to what we know, that he's a great idol and a person who steps on stage, giving us a reason to smile every now and then.

He might be dead but he will remain alive in our hearts. Dear Jonghyun of Shinee, you did well, you worked hard. ◕‿◕