I know many people have written something already but that doesn't make it less important. 

Yesterday, 18th of december 2017, we lost a wonderful singer with a big heart: Kim Jong Hyun. 

There are no words that can express how heartbroken and devastated I feel. He was my age, just a few months younger. It just feels unreal, like a bad dream. 

I am so, so sad. As someone who is battling depression myself - though in no way as bad as he must have - I know that it sometimes feels like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. Depression lies. It tells you that, but it's not true. It is NEVER true. There is always hope.

If there only had been a way for him to see that. If there only had been someone who could have given him the help he needed... but there wasn't. 

He saw no other way out and even was told that it was his own fault. THAT IS A LIE. 

Please, don't let his death be in vain. If you suffer from depression or know someone who does, get help. That is NEVER a shame or a sign of weakness. 

Your life matters, no matter what. Mental sickness is NOT a joke. It is as serious as any other sickness and it can end deadly. I think we have seen that too many times to make jokes about it anymore. If someone does, do NOT listen. They don't know what they are talking about or they wouldn't say something like that. 

Underneath I posted some suicide prevention hotlines. Even if you are "just" battling depression or any other (mental) struggle, you can call them for anything. 

 United States:

• National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
  • 1-800-273-8255
  • TTY Hearing & Speech Impaired Line 1-800-799-4889
  • Or a chat feature can be found on their website at https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
• IMALIVE
  • 1-800-442-4673
  • Or a chat feature can be found on their website at http://hopeline.com/hotline/
• Many other helpful resources and hotlines in the US can be found at http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html

International Suicide Hotlines:​​​​

• Argentina Suicide Hotlines
• Armenia Suicide Hotlines
• Australia Suicide Hotlines
• Barbados Suicide Hotlines
• Belgium Suicide Hotlines
• Botswana Suicide Hotlines
• Brazil Suicide Hotlines
• Canada Suicide Hotlines
• China Suicide Hotlines
• Croatia Suicide Hotlines
• Cyprus Suicide Hotlines
• Denmark Suicide Hotlines
• Egypt Suicide Hotlines
• Estonia Suicide Hotlines
• Fiji Suicide Hotlines
• Finland Suicide Hotlines
• France Suicide Hotlines
• Germany Suicide Hotlines
• Ghana Suicide Hotlines
• Gibraltar Suicide Hotlines
• Hong Kong Suicide Hotlines
• Hungary Suicide Hotlines
• India Suicide Hotlines
• Ireland Suicide Hotlines
• Israel Suicide Hotlines
• Italy Suicide Hotlines  
• Japan Suicide Hotlines
• Liberia Suicide Hotlines
• Lithuania Suicide Hotlines
• Malaysia Suicide Hotlines
• Malta Suicide Hotlines
• Mauritius Suicide Hotlines
• Namibia Suicide Hotlines
• Netherlands Suicide Hotlines
• New Zealand Suicide Hotlines
• Norway Suicide Hotlines
• Paupua New Guinea Suicide Hotlines
• Philippines Suicide Hotlines
• Poland Suicide Hotlines
• Portugal Suicide Hotlines
• Russian Federation Suicide Hotlines
• Somoa Suicide Hotlines
• Serbia Suicide Hotlines
• Singapore Suicide Hotlines
• South Africa Suicide Hotlines
• South Korea Suicide Hotlines
• Spain Suicide Hotlines
• Sri Lanka Suicide Hotlines
• St. Vincent Suicide Hotlines
• Sudan Suicide Hotlines
• Sweden Suicide Hotlines
• Switzerland Suicide Hotlines
• Taiwan Suicide Hotlines
• Thailand Suicide Hotlines
• Tobago Suicide Hotlines
• Tonga Suicide Hotlines
• Trinidad and Tobago Suicide Hotlines
• Turkey Suicide Hotlines
• Ukraine Suicide Hotlines
• United Kingdom Suicide Hotlines
• Zimawe Suicide Hotlines

Dear Jonghyun,

You weren't afraid to speak up for others, embracing diversity as something precious.

We will never forget you. You brought so much joy to this world.

May your soul rest in peace. You will be missed.