Hi everyone , this is my first post here and i'm not proud to be over this sad moment. Where could i start? I'm just so heart broken... i'm crying since i read the news but i need to express what i feel. 

SHINee was one of the first groups i stanned when i got into Kpop. Do you know that feeling when you are so proud when something great is one of your firsts?

I wish this were all a bad nightmare. It's weird , that you are gone. I feel empty knowing you weren't as happy as you seem. My brain and heart can't register the fact that i won't see you anymore or hear more new songs with your beautiful voice in it. Thank you for everything you did to me , to Shawols , to the world. Your beautiful smile , your precious voice , the love you showed for us , Shawols , your strong power to look happy ,... all that will be the start of an endless list of great things you left us to remember and enjoy. I'LL MISS YOU SO MUCH ANGEL ♡

Rest In Peace Kim Jonghyun ~ 18.12.17