Jonghyun… let’s talk about Jonghyun. Or let’s not talk about that but instead about how this could happen.

Mental health is a complicated issue, not only is it not visible for the human eye, like most other illnesses are, and therefore harder to detect and even harder to heal. You can’t hide a gushing wound but you can fake a smile and apparently that’s what he did. Faked to be happy instead of actually feeling happy.

Feelings are meant to be felt. If you have ever felt really ty and then cried for a while, you will notice you feel slightly better afterwards, because you finally let go of a weight you have been dragging around with you all the time, let it out and leave your body in one way or another, but if you keep dragging all that weight around with you all the time, it will get harder and harder for you to carry it, till eventually it will drag you down with it. It doesn’t matter how strong you are if you never let go of the weight, you will get crushed by it eventually.

Life isn’t easy and you can’t just compare someone else’s struggle to the pain you have felt. Even if you have been through similar, the details will be different. You might be wearing the same shoes, but you are not walking at the same paste, not carrying the same weight, not leaving the same footprints in the sand even though they look similar. Every situation is slightly different and there is no one formula that will cure everyone.

Sadly Jonghyun gave up, and nothing we will ever do or say can ever bring him back. So let you emotions out, because emotions are there to be felt and not suppressed. But remember, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Don’t let yourself down like that, you can do so much better. Think of all the people you leave behind with nothing but a memory of you.

And however miserable you might feel right now, I want you all to know that it will get better. It might not get better today or tomorrow, but eventually it will get better and there will come a day you will be ok again, and on that day, you will look back and be glad you didn’t give up today.

Rest in peace Jonghyun, I hope you are in a better place now, where you can be truely happy.

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