Today is one of the worst days in my life. it feels like there is something stuck in my throat it hurts. İt hurts to breath it hurts to think and it hurts to talk.

I feel like I lost something important, like a part of my dreams just vanished into thin air. 

Jonghyun was one of the few singers who gained my full respect with his amazing voice, abilities, personality and especially self- written songs.

İt was Shinee who made me love Kpop, I always dreamt of attending their concert one day. It felt like they would never part even after 10 years but it happened.

Even thinking about this hurts me so writing is even harder but I want to overcome this pain by sharing it because only we Shawol's can know the pain as a fan, of losing Jonghyun. 

Thinking about this makes me sick I mean what did do, how lonely he must have felt waiting in that apartment for 4 hours then writing Sodam noona his last message there is a four-hour difference between the time he rented the apartment and the time he wrote the message. Why Jonghyun, why did such an amazing person have to deal with such pain, why couldn't anybody help him, why did you want to die so badly that you rented that goddamn place where it took them nearly two hours to find your body. Even I as a fan am feeling this amazing suffocation and pain, İ don't even want to imagine the pain of his sister and mother who got the message desperately praying and looking for him. 

What about ONEW, KEY MİNHO AND TAEMİN how much they must suffer right now, knowing that they have lost their brother forever. This was such an unexpected shocking event that my mind started to feel blank. İt was only yesterday when I watched your previous concert.

MY DEAREST WİSH İS THAT JONGHYUN HAS FİNALLY FOUND PEACE AND WİLL LİVE FOREVER İN OUR HEARTS. DEAR SHAWOLS, LETS KEEP SUPPORTİNG OUR LOVE.

 DEEPEST CONDOLENCES TO ALL OF JONGHYUN'S FANS FAMİLİE FRİENDS AND MEMBERS