Jonghyun's death seems legit, and I had enough

I hope it's not true, but the evidences are overwhelming. I can't deny it anymore. My family's having a party downstairs while I'm so ing emo right now in my room. 

Tho SM hasn't stated anything yet (as far as I've seen, maybe they have), I can't deny it anymore. His sister confirmed, the police confirmed, news are everywhere and even some celebrities are already saying their condolences for him. 

 

I... I really don't know what to do anymore. Call me stupid for acting all depressed, but Jonghyun was and IS special to me. I got into kpop from listening to his voice. He's so special to me and you can't fight me on this. I'm not gonna get all crazy, starve myself and try to join him to death or something but... I'm almost as broken as the time when I heard news that my teacher and dear friend died in a tragic incident. I've lost so many people this year, and watch people lose them as well. 

I knew that something wasn't right with him a few years back, when his weight started to drop and everything. He.. didn't have the same light as he does back then. I didn't know it'll come to this ing disaster. What I'm even more scared of is that he's not going to the good place, if you know what I mean. Which means his death had just welcomed an eternity of pain. 

 

I'm officially depressed, so.. I'll either stop writing until I'm over with this, or I'll write till my nails falls off. 

 

Jonghyun, there's probably no use in saying this and all but, we love you. I'm cringing at myself for acting so emo and moping around like this but I had enough. I just can't anymore. He's such a gem to me. I don't know what to do anymore. It feels so heavy to type right now. My fingers could barely move, I just want to cry. Every one is precious, and I wish I could've done something. 

 

You did good, Jonghyun. You did really, really good... If only the last thing you did was good too. 

 

IF ALL THIS TURNED OUT TO BE SOME BS, DEAR LORD I WISH YOU HAVE THINGS COMING FOR YOU. 

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Lali_Soo #1
I'm really saddened because of his death even though I'm not a fan. I was originally really happy because I just watched SNSD crack videos but now I feel all depressed and . I REALLY REALLY hope that it was all a sick joke but I guess sometimes we all just have to face reality right? ;(
aqualili #2
WHAT??????? tell me it's not true....
callmesabby #3
There's no official statement from SM Ent yet, maybe because even they themselves are still shocked and they have never dealt with this kind of incident. The upcoming comebacks are very soon, therefore it does make sense that they have to take a long time before releasing any statement. However, as his sister & the police have confirmed it, we have to accept the sad truth. This is so heartbreaking, especially for the fans who have been in Kpop during 2nd generation era and SHAWOLs. We are sad, but they are the ones who endure the biggest heartbreak now.
-haruman #4
You're not alone in this. SHINee is the first ever K-Pop group I listened to 6 years ago, and even though my bias was Taemin in the beginning, Jonghyun just kept attacking me mercilessly. I was just done with my second to last lesson when I found out about his passing and I kept on denying it. It's really depressing, knowing that someone who paved a way for you leave for somewhere far far away. Today, an angel returned to heaven. May he rest in peace and may us, Shawols, be strong. Rest in peace and sing freely there Jonghyun, we'll always love you
alexajjang #5
my heart is broken to pieces. Only God knows how I'm feeling inside. The sadness is too much to endure. Because of him, I met kpop. He was a true artist and such a beautiful soul
_Queenie_ #6
I feel the same.. I've lost many dear to me this year, the most dear one committing suicide too, For some reason, JongHyun's death hit me harder than I expected a celebrity's would... God, I really hope he rests in peace and his work lives on, He'll live forever in our hearts..
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