I ALWAYS HATED BIRTHDAYS.

It's finally a really happy birthday. Of course I never had a birthday party (i dislike attention seeking event lmao) all of my life but it never matters. It's been SOOOOO long since I've been blessed in my own birthday. IT'S CRAYYYYZEEEEEE I LOVE IT EVEN.

Though it's only morning here like 8.23a.m. rn, and the rest of the day might be ty, I still had the best times before it and dang it was da bomb! I don't have any plans today anywayss staying home might be better and I'm still contemplating whether to happily overwork my out or just lazily lay down everywhere and eat a tub of ice cream.

Oh oh ya!!

My wish is I hope for the rest of 2017 and into next year and for the rest of my life onwards,,,, I'd be able to learn to love myself. I mean like, I do hate being despicable and hideous and all but I just gotta accept the me, huh? Although I'm this lacking like about 99.99%.

AND IF YOU DON'T LOVE YOURSELF, WHO WILL? DON'T YOU REMEMBER WHAT SEHUN SAID IN TIMELESS DIAMOND (it's my fave yall check vanillasushi to find the best fics),,

"Love yourself first if you want me to see you as a woman." 

WELL IT GOES ALONG SOMETHING LIKE THAT BUT OK YOU GET ME RIGHT.

RIGHT NOW I BETTER GO AND HAVE A BLAST.