Work was...a bit stressful.

But then all these guys from the other side of my building started coming over to help us. It took me a minute to realize who they were, but they ended up being employees that work with my cutie!

...and I was freaking out, looking for him...but he didn't come to help :c

He left ASAP and we got stuck with people that didn't know what they were doing =_________=

And on the way back to my car, my friend started hitting on me again =__=;

I hate it, but I have to be harsh to this guy to get him to leave me alone! Seriously? I think he needs to have his head examined because I've told him numerous times I'm not interested. I sat there on the tram and tried to ignore him as best as I could, but he can't take a hint.

WHY DO I ATTRACT THE WEIRDOS?!

I already know that my cutie looks for me, but I'm too awkward to say anything. ...and I'm not sure if he only looks at me because I glance at him every chance I get O_O' or if it's something else. I don't think I'm pretty, I'm white with semi-mono-double eyelids and VERY average looking (if you don't notice I'm mixed). I'll break it down "Lovely Sam-Soon" style:

REALLY Old > Kinda old > Middle-aged > Younger with childern > Lesbians > average college student

I'm the last one...so I get hit on all the time and I know it means nothing ._______________. and it doesn't help that all these guys are weirdos T_T

I don't wanna be that b!tch that's like

"Ha, I get asked out all the time!" but this is so weird to me bacuse I'm that fat girl from middleschool :c

Everyone expects me to have all of this "experience" but I dont. D:

I've struggled with myself, image and accepting myself so all of this is weird and new. AND I JUST TURNED 21 IN KOREA/sal! T_T talk about a lame Nuna/Uni...Mei Mei has more experience with boys than I do.

So I'm the 13 year-old girl silently crushing...but he gives me butterflies, something I don't get very often.

My studies are number 1 (next to fangirling) but sometimes I want a hug, someone to push my hair out of my face when I'm having a bad day, press their forehead to mine and say "I think you're beautiful," does this not exist? I've been single for years and I've had this once before, but I let him slip away. Can't I just feel those butterflies and know that he feels them too?

Girls, you are beautiful and should never settle for less than youre worth.

I am ugly, but beautiful.

I will not give up in love, but why does it take soo looooong~?

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I have no idea how this ended up this way, I hope you at least enjoyed SHINee, it was all I could do not to get upset.

Life is ok just the way it is, but I want some excitment too.

-meng