First of all...

IGNORE THIS POST IF YOU DON'T STAN BTS PLEASE... SHEESH I DON'T WANT HATE AT LEAST NOT HERE! I'M SERIOUS THIS IS EXACTLY  WHY THIS IS ALL IN CAPS! (IF ANTIS COMMENT ANYWAY IMMA DELETE THEM HATE COMMENTS)

This is me pouring my heart out, might be cringey and all sorts of stomach churning stuff but I really need to do this...

Okay where was I... So I really need to get this off my chest... I've been stanning BTS since God knows when and they have a real close place to my heart(no one ever has a close place next to my heart...they're an exception) and I'm just so proud of them, and happy for them, their success, their hard work being acknowledged,  their smiles and tears are contagious I swear ... I've cried a number of times under the blanket... I've laughed, I've cried, I've fangirled... I've been listening and jamming to their songs all through middle school and high school, first year and now haha and watched them grow I guess(from afar TvT) Like they inspire me... they inspire me everyday, Suga is living inspiration I hope he writes a book or something .  ..if that happens I'm 1000% sure it'll sell out in 1 millionth of a second (exaggeration intended) I'm straying here. 

They're going on these shows Jimmy Kimmel live... The Ellen Degenre's Show... AMAs ... Billboards... Ah I can't .. I'm overflowing with emotions tbh... And Gawd the views in DNA and other things I can't evenremember. They're gaining global recognition and ... I'm loving every second of it, I can't see a more deserving band than BTS ATM, they've struggled with a lot of things and honestly it makes me mad how some people have the audacity to make rude comments(constructive criticisms aside) lame reasons below:

1: because they think the bands they Stan are more deserving of the attention(bull... They've been through a lot okay? Like they didn't just debut a day ago and became worldwide famous the next day or something, not saying it other bands aren't deserving, of course they are they might even be better than BTS for all I know ...just... For the time being let them take the spotlight please... I'm begging you)

2: The members are ugly (I hate it... I hate it so much when they blindly say the members are ugly... Man you can't hate a band because the members are ugly... Plus in the music industry the quality of music matters... People who say the members are ugly need to take a look at Kim Taehyung -_-)

3:the lyrics don't make sense..(OMFG wutt!!! I know a dozen songs that don't make sense at all and are still popular ...)

4: they look like gays (hold it right there! Them fags don't know the definition of 'gays' )

5: They all look the same ( I.. uh admit that Asians don't have prominent face features but I don't see it as a reason for anyone to hate o.O)

6: they're not talented( my middle finger said 'hi')

Those are the common ones... There are a lot but I can't remember them ...

Moving on ... They're all over the place and so busy and I'm trying so hard to keep up with them... With everything that's going on sometimes I wonder how they're feeling about it,(okay they share some stuff on their Vlives and apparently I missed Hobi's so I'm fuming.  ..jk I won't the miss it the next time and I can still watch him so no worries) but I wonder if they feel overwhelmed, or nervous because I sit behind a screen and feel hella nervous for them. When I watch them I literally want to scream or bite something, they look so calm. Then there's that part of me that thinks, they've accepted it so... (I hope they have because they need too >.<)

They're so good to ARMY's wtf I'm crying TvT even though people like me are impulsive and say and do things without second thoughts... I haven't seen a group that loves their fans so much.

Another one of my concerns ... I stumbled across a lot of fanfics lately related to the members being depressed and self harming and all that, I mean I know they're just fanfics and I shouldn't take them seriously but it hit me pretty hard when I read them. They're just human, even though they've achieved so much they're just human, and the members having admitted that they were depressed at one point really stings for some reason, they have an image and reputation to keep and they obviously can't hang their faces low with anxiety. Some es think depression isn't a big thing but only depressed people understand. The stress and all the judgemental remarks on top of that, it's a lot to deal with and I have suicidal thoughts for the stupidest of reasons, If I try to put myself in their place I doubt I'd even be alive. Still it sacres me thinking about it but it's a serious thing and where its really personal on their end and comes off as prying from my end I really really do hope they hang on, and they stay in good shape .

Suga... Living inspiration I repeat living inspiration... When I'm depressed (which I always am apparently) he comes to my mind.Then there's V, going through a really hard time from what I see... I hope he's doing okay, even though his stubborn won't and I'm not even sure if the agency will allow it but I wish he'd take some time off T^T he's so kind doing what he does for (me) us...Jiminnie always talks about being better,and I don't know if he'd get any better honestly like he's already so perfect but he wants to be 'perfect' which I admire so much, he's got so much drive in him. Jungkook... (my) golden boi TvT I have no comments everything about this boy is breathtaking... I wished he enjoyed his life even more... Wise old man Namjoon TvT he has my eternal respect and sarangs, high-key the best leader ...ever(don't argue with me) Jinnie... His windshield wiper laugh wins me over every single time, I wish this worldwide handsome man took better care of his health ... (Or otherwise pray for him to have a stronger body) Hobi ( that ball of sunshine) I'm so selfish but I hope he smiles that contagious smile of his, I don't know honestly that smile of his lights me up(low-key true) I don't know how to end... Ends TvT

PS:this post isn't intended to spike anyone's anger, also I'm sorry if I said a few things that I shouldn't have(I doubt Anyone'll read this anyway) have a great day^^