It's already 2am here and I'm tired but I can't sleep. So, I started a new fanfic (that I will post soon. I mean when I will finish it completely) Anyway, it wasn't the subject. The subject was my life. Myself. For once, I'll voice something that I have in my head; that I can't talk to my mother because she will be sad? I think? I don't even know... but surely she will not be happy...

What's a family for you guys? It's surely your parents, siblings and aunt, uncle, grandparents, cousins and so on, right?

For me, it's only 4 persons. My mother, my big brother, my little sister and myself (Yes, I'm the kid of the middle :p Some may understand the struggle to be born as the second lol) No uncle, cousin or grandparents. Let's say, that the person that I considered as my family either died when I was young or abandonned me. I feel really alone, because I see my mother working for us and I just can't help her. 

I feel useless. 

So, when my uncle talked to me tonight, I kinda get MAD. Like boiii, you literaly ignored your own sister (aka my mom) and now you want me to call you?? For what?? I don't have any business with him anymore. Each persons who made suffered my mom is worthless in my eyes. I did this to my father so I can to anyone else. 

I don't understand why so many things happen in my life right now. I'm supposed to concentrate on my studies but people come DISTURBING ME!! 

I'll start to CLEAN my life from all the people who made me suffer. Maybe it's something that I shouldn't do but I chose my mother over my whole "family". they don't deserve me and they don't deserve her. 

*sigh* OK, I said what I wanted to say. My mother is religious so I can't talk about it with her because I know that she will try to change me and convince me to "forgive" them.

*time to go to sleep*

-HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE-