So just now I was eating lunch, I told my father to stop chewing loudly. You know when people chew loudly, sometimes they chew with this mushy sound? The males in my family chew like that. It's not that I'm intolerant but I really can't help but hate it. I didn't know it was some kind of sound phobia until my english teacher told me. I already had it in primary school but no one believed me because I just tried to brush it aside and tell them to chew with their mouths closed. But then when my english teacher told the class that it was some kind of phobia, I told my family but only my mom believed me. It was kind of sad to think that my family doesn't trust me in what I say and think I'm only coming up with an excuse to get things my way. But it's like telling a claustrophobic person to it up and get into a small dark room. That's exactly how I felt. So today when I told my father if he could chew softer, he said if I couldn't tolerate my family, I should go live alone. I don't really consider him family after all the hurtful things he said but couldn't he just understand? He has mild claustrophobia too. When I was younger I gave him this heart I made out of beans for father's day during my school workshop. I told him I specially made it for him but he told me to throw it away because he couldn't take clustered things. Then as a kid, I felt really rejected because I put so much effort into this but it didn't get paid off. I have mild claustrophobia too because I went through quite a horrible experience of caving in an artificial cave and was the leader of the group. We were kept in really tight spaces and I felt really hopeless that time which made me develop a certain phobia of really dark and narrow spaces. It HAS been scientifically proven that a phobia can develop after someone has experienced an extreme of something and has been pushed to feeling helpless that they develop a phobia for these kind of things. But my phobia on sound(as said by my eng teacher) is because people's frontal lobes are more interlocked than others that we can visualise the digestion process better than others which makes it digusting to hear. But they just don't believe me! It's so saddening. Btw it's misophonia. Not really a phobia but almost there. It's just like KDVWJABAJDHDJSSJFUSKPSBFODHDDJ DIWLWNDD URGHHHHHHHHH yeah.