The EXO'rDIUM in Malaysia

18th March 2017

When you have a dream, make it a reality. At first I didn't really get the idea behind this statement; thinking sometimes our dreams are far too unrealistic or just impossible to chase after. Truth is, we only miss the chances that we never take and if I hadn't gone up to my mother that morning–anxious as I wait for her response after seeking permission to go see EXO perform live here(again), maybe I might be spending the rest of my days in regret. When she said "Sure thing, why not?" I had to pinch myself a little, almost surprised that she actually said Yes! (because I already blew my savings with the RockZone ticket last year and to make it worse I had my parents pick me up past midnight after getting wasted with the boys and the fandom xD) Just like that my dad hopped on board and I don't think there's even a word to describe how thankful I was on having such supportive parents. Tickets were bought that night and since my mom was paying for the tickets she bought one for herself as well, so like hey, why not? It still seems surreal for me until on the 18th of March, I got inside the outdoor stadium around 5.30PM; had the best seats in the house and watching my boys perform right before my very own eyes was definitely out of this world.

Grab a seat, honey. Its storytime.

WE ALL START BY WARMING UP WITH THE PEPERO AD. ON THE BIG SCREEN, like it was so funny when everyone started screaming every.single.time after the boys appeared just on a screen. The concert hasn't even started yet and everyone was already getting their vocals ready to be thrown at the boys x) When the VCR began, the adrenaline rush was no joke(it's been in my body since the night before); I was with my lightstick and personalised Sehun banner in hand, screaming like the rest of the EXOLs inside the stadium. MAMA was the opening performance and guys istg I was so emotional when the guys just popped right on the stage, out of the fog effects, dancing to the music and even as I'm writing this I'm grinning/fighting the urge to scream again because it wAS MAGICAL!!!

THEY. ARE. REAL. I repeat, THEY. ARE. REAL.

Compared to last year, I was a bit more further than them since I was at the freaking front row of Rock M during EXOluXioninMY and at the left side of the stage where I got splashed by Sehun during his BDC wet stage, THIS FREAKING YEAR, PARK MOTHERFATHER CHANYEOL WAS PERFORMING WITH HIS CANE RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES. GUYS THE FKING BODY ROLL I'M DEAD I SAW HIM DO THAT AND I LOVED EVERY SECOND OF IT. My mom was shook but she didn't show much, I bet she didnt see dat coming huhuhu but she loved him, she said he was so good looking, had cute ears and a great-GORGEOUS-height yayy channie *waves lightstick proudly*

^ this was LITERALLY ME DURING ARTIFICIAL LOVE STAGE.

I don't know but I honestly feel like I got more luck with Chanyeol(mostly) and Baekhyun //coughs *first biases*// in concerts than I do with Sehun //coughs *ultiMATE// because last year that maknae keeps walking here and there and out of the blue PCY is right in front of my face like woah there bOIII.

Anyways, during White Noise, SEHUN'S DEEP VOICE WAS LIKE "DON'T YOU WANT ME BABY" LOUD AND CLEAR IN HIS MIC I DIED. He was so beautiful, a masterpiece, art—actually all of them are but Baek was just so bubbly and giggly throughout the entire concert- guYS I CAUGHT HIM CHUCKLING ON CAM AND I CANT ANYMORE im dead goodbye. its music to my ears, I can't believe I lived to hear his "hehe" in person omg im sobbing rn. Tbh none of these are in order, see I started with Artificial Love stage bc I still can't get the image of Xiumin and Chanyeol's body rolls near us and my eyes went to find SeBaek and I almost died on spot seeing how perfectly their bodies moved T u T.

Ment time and the boys were sweating like hell :))))) Its so heartwarming to know how much they missed us and bc we were the ONLY outdoor stadium in the whole tour, Jongin was excited for Malaysiaaaaaa~~ bbybear dyed his hair for us omg. I love how much fun we had this year compared to last yr, maybe because last year everything was so sudden and still new so even the fanbases lacked in projects and it wasn't as LIT AS THIS YEARR!! THE GUYS ARE SO HANDSOME IN PERSON, I'LL NEVER GET TIRED OF SAYING THAT. Chanyeol is so tall and last year I had trouble looking at his whole body since I was at rock zone and istg I'm buying Cat4 for every exoconcert that's getting held in Stadium Merdeka, it was comfortable and I got to see every single thing on stage without missing anything on the other end, there wasn't too many in line for Green Gate except those that bought Cat4 and ppl rarely purchase Cat5. Bby Jongin dyed his hair for us that night and he was so cute I love that little bearr .-. The guys wouldn't stop wishing for rain since it was an outdoor stadium and EXOLs were like noooooo bc we were more than thankful coz there wasn't a heavy thunderstorm like it was predicted (Ha, in ya face weatherman)

They've never been to a country as hot as Malaysia and thank you joonmyeon for calling us hot but we all know who the real hotties are ;) we were just the sweaties and wetties because of the rain k omg AHAHAHA. When Chanyeol was like "I miss you guys," I melted, died, bye bc I missed you so much asjdka TTTT Gramps was showing off his english skills like dammmn his accent was y omg. Member by member introduced themselves, some malay words slipped in here and there like "Apa Khabar Malaysia," and Chen's iconic, "Aku cinta kamu." but don't worry boys kitorg lagi sayangkan korang tau hikhik :'))) Baekhyun was all smiles standing next to our BABY MAKNAE, HEARING THEIR VOICEs AGAIN WAS A BLESSING AND I'M GLAD MY MOTHER GOT TO SEE THEM TOO.

SEHUN'S 49CM SHOULDERS WERE PER-FECT-ION I FEEL LIKE I DIDN'T SHOW MUCH APPRECIATION ABOUT HIS BROADNESS WHEN I WAS SO MUCH MORE CLOSER TO HIM LAST YEAR. During the Lady Luck acoustic stage, SeKai were dancing and so was my heart, those boys and gahd the passion they ALL had to show us their best sides, I love EXO, nuff said. Since they were sweating so much, there were so many armcandies on stage like when chanyeol came out in a wifebeater we lost our , those collarbones and tHAT SKIN GUYS SCREAM WITH ME. OVERDOSE STAGE CAME ON AND OH SEHUN THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY TO TAKE HIS JACKET OFF AND SHOW OFF HOW BULKY HE IS I WANTED TO CRY HIS ARMS WERE PERFECT. CAN YOU FEEL ME? GETTING TO SEE THOSE VEINY ARMS AND MUSCLES OF HIS EVEN IF I WASN'T THAT CLOSE BUT STILL SEHUN'S ARMS WERE THE HOTTEST THINGS EVER. CHANYEOL ALSO TOOK OFF HIS JACKET GUYS HIS ARMS WERE SO BIG AND THE WHOLE NIGHT IT WAS PARK ARMYEOLS ISTG. I WANNA PUNCH A WALL

Lightsaber perf and Baek was on the extended stage closest to me, he grABBED HIS CROTCH AND I LOST IT. HE IS SO PRETTY GUYS, MY EYES HAVE BEEN BLESSED AGAIN. His smile is brighter than th Sun you really have to see it to believe it TT I looked over to see how my mom reacted to all the crotch grabbing and she was just like "Baekhyun so handsome" 

I love my mom <3 #momgoals af.

WHY WERE THEY GRUNTING INTO THE MIC I CANT HANDLE THAT- DAMN IT THEIR VOICES WERE HEAVENLY SINFUL. First it was Baek, basically digging up how deep his voice could go then suddenly Sehun during Unfair stage like his voice is sO HUSKY I LOVE HIM EVEN MORE UUHUHUHUHU.TT

The 3Kimbros plus ksoo were sitting down while the other members were changing backstage. OUTTA NOWHERE KIM JONGIN DID AEGYO WITH HIS BEARDANCE GUYS HE WAS ADORABLE I ALMOST THREW MY LIGHTSTICK AWAY. HE DID IT TWICE AND IT WAS THE CUTEST THING EVER MY LIFE IS COMPLETE NOW. Joonmyeon telling all of Malaysia to calm down was the highlight of the entire concert istg, we were excited for Xiumin's bday project and even before Umin came out we were all ready af to start singing. Suho saw the pic for the project and was like "Calm down guys, Malaysia please calm down." I bet he must've loved it when we laughed bc he had that "boss face" mode on when everyone started laughing XD. While waiting for Umin hyung, Suho sang Curtain, Chen flaunting his flawless vocals and Kyungsoo hesitated for a few times to sing something before shaking the stadium with a single line; "Tell me what is love." 

Then Byunbaek appeared, singing his lines in Bigawa, he was sO EXTRA and when the members were telling him to stop bc Xiumin got out(and we were preparing), he kept whining the lines from the song hES SUCH A BABY I LOVE HIM. GUYS.GUYS.GUYS I ALMOST CRIED WHEN SEHUN SANG/HUM EVEN IF IT WAS FOR A WHILE, I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE I GOT TO ACTUALLY HEAR THAT SOFT VOICE OF HIS ASJDKASD HIS VOICE IS JUST SO SINCERE~ IT WAS HEAVENLY. and and anddd my baby told us to look forward for it if he ever had a solo album im CRYINGH SEHUN I'LL BUY 10000 COPIES OF YOUR ALBUM OK SAYANG!?

Xiubaby got a lil teary eyed when we sang for him(even at ending ment), he must've been so overwhelmed bc we did it last year and we're doing it again this year. Do it together stage was LIT and I still got "같이같이해," stuck in my head. Chanyeol rocked the stage with his electric guitar, soon DJ Chanyeol was in da house y'alls it was epic. Being able to watch and hear the boys having so much fun together with us omg I was in love all over again its not even funny ;-;)s<3 fuhhhh ambik jelah hati aku, ape lagi kau nak sayang oi semua ni kau ambik jelah adoi.

^me after getting noticed by the men i love.

I think it was during Drop that/full moon when I literally raised the banner I made for Sehun sky high since he was coming my way and I was basically just thirsty for attention (I felt like we didn't interact much last time istg it was pcy that gave me the most fanservice last yr) AHAHAHAAH BUT HE WAVED, HE LOOKED AT ME RIGHT IN THE EYES AND WAVED AND I CAUGHT IT ON CAM GUYS IM CRYINGJDFJ. IT WAS THE BEST 10SECONDS(?) OF MY LIFE LIKE HE JUST STOOD THERE, WAVING BACK WITH A SMILE ON HIS FACE I WANNA KISS HIM. I was losing it and my mom was just like "damn look at sehun's body-" I love how hyped my mother was as well, I was scared at first to lose my in front of her bc I'm afraid of how she might react to me fangirling so hard lmao she's never eva seen this side of me before and even as I screamed/got possessed/wailed/sang along with the fandom, she was beside me, waving her lightstick with us and I'M SO BLESSED TO HAVE HER THERE. By the last song, I made a heartsign for so long that I got tired of it when the members didn't seem to notice bUT THEN XIUBABY WALKED ALL THE WAY TO THE EXTENDED STAGE, THREW THE HEART BACK JUST SECONDS AFTER I PUT MY HANDS DOWN LOL ILY. Baekhyun's smile is brighter than the Sun guys, see it for yourself and cry with me.

The boys wanted rain and they got it but thankfully it was just a light drizzle, nothing serious like the rain we've had recently but talk about how happy they were when it started raining. The guys were hyped, Yeol was splashing water from the bottles to the members and especially onto himself bc his superpowers are fire and he just can't stand his own hotness smh. Of cos it was ironic bc it sorta rained by the time Suho's part in the Encore VCR (the part where it rained). 

The final ment was obviously sad, the goodbyes and hopes about meeting each other again~ aigoo my heart is heavy now that I'm writing this part. It was sad but touching because we know how much fun we've all had and even the boys were hoping to see us again bc this year WAS SO MUCH better than last time and I'm proud of the fandom for giving in their all for that night <3

SHOUT OUT TO the bug that got on Chanyeol's jersey bc thanks to it he took it off, SHOWING OFF THOSE MUSCLES OF HIS and that child almost slipped on the water he poured on the stage himself. Joonma was not impressed xD SeBaek, my babies, they were fooling around with each other and Sehun even joked with the translater. Everyone kept replying "Ne," to whatever the members said so Sehun was like, "you guys understand korean right? So translator no need to translate." psh boi wanted to test us but oppa we gotchu. *waves korean dictionary aggressively* Being able to say "We are One and EXO Saranghaja" is priceless, I love and thank the boys for really making us feel like we are one team <3 I miss them so much, and I'm looking forward to the next time we meet TTTTTTT <3

^ rare pic of how my mom looked trying her best to figure out the members that appeared on the VCR. She got Chanyeol and Chen right on but always got confused between Sehun and Suho x)

The whole time she was like "Where's the guy you like?", "Which one is Sehun?", "Is that him?", and since I was simultanously waving my lightstick and recording the whole thing with my phone, I was like "That one, but which one do you like mama?" AND lol my mom was like "I love your father more." xD mom pls  but after that night she wouldn't stop talking about how cute ChenBaek was.

This entire thing is random, I'm writing what I remember and screaming at the same time xD I guess I'm just blabbering about the concert since I got nothing better to do huhu post-concert depression is rEAL GUYS... but I'm writing it all down bc I also wanna keep this memory alive for the rest of my life, even if my mind fades away I can read this again and just experince that night over again; I'm telling my children, grandchildren and their grandchildren about how lucky we are to exist the same time as EXO :P.

The inital plan was for me to go see the boys with my friend since she offered me an extra ticket bUT, FRIENDS CAN BE SNAKES TOO GUYS. I'm gonna get personal here since she was a "Friend" *let's call her friend A* I knew for about 8 months since I moved to a new school for senior year, my mom was honestly worried to let me go with her since even my mom didn't know much about her and I went to the concert last year with a very close family friend who's now studying abroad.

Funny story was friend A happened to have sold the tickets away just days before we met up for the concert and ofc I was mad, like I said I'll pay it back and suddenly she cut all contact with me regarding the concert—she wouldn't answer my calls or text, she was a snake guys omg i couldn't believe it myself and when I told that to my mom even she was pissed bc its nOT funny to pull a prank on a fangirl, that too LAST MINUTE. We all knew my journey to TEDinMY was literally unplanned, I thought I'd rather save my money this year by not going to see the boys eventhough my heart missed them so badly and when my mom knew how my friend ditched me last minute even after I promised to pay her back little by little, she went online and basically bought the tickets for us.. So, I'm honestly very glad my mother accompanied me to the concert because we haven't had a mother-daughter session since she had work and me with my own studies so I cherished that moment more than I did with the exo members <33

I'm certain my mother must've had second thoughts on what she just got herself into x) but she was needless to say the best mother in the whole wide world, thank you so much mom for having fun with me and what she told me that night was a sentence I could never ever forget in my entire life. "I love you so I'm doing this for you," and you know its kinda cheesy or quite normal to hear a mom say those words but when I thought about it, I was there that night because I freaking love E-X-O and she was there as well, because she loved me. :'))))) I'm touched, I don't think even my memories with the boys could top the golden moments I had with my mother that night. After the concert I learned that my mother now stans ChenBaek and a bit of squishySoo since he looked so much like her cousin xD, she LOVED their voices + Chen's curly hair/Baek's smile and even Kyungsoo's vocals she wouldn't stop talking about the three boys on the way back home and I was so happy about it.

Plus, this one fansupport for Baek was made of paper and it got soaked in the rain a lil so I crumpled the paper when I got back home since it was already ruined anyway. MY MOM SAW THAT AND SHE WAS HEARTBROKEN LIKE CAN YOU BELIEVE SHE CAME IN MY ROOM, ASKING ME WHY I DID SUCH A THING TO BYUNBAEKHYUN GUYS SHE'S IN THE FANDOM. MY MOM IS AN EXOL NOW AHAHA AWW. NOW I KNOW WHO I'LL DRAG TO THE STADIUM NEXT TIME EXO COMES. She loved the boys and I love her so much for giving me the chance to go see them again because we never know what's in store for us tomorrow, and so I want to tell everyone out there to live in the moment.

Enjoy every second of the life you have, with the people around you because tomorrow is never promised. Mostly I just wanna stress about how important family is before anything else, see how easily my friend played me since she knew how much I was into EXO and I'm not being selfish by going to see them for free, I promised to pay back for the extra ticket but look what she did and she didn't even bother telling me abt that. Honestly I don't think there's even a proper word to describe about how thankful I am for my parents, I feel like they've done so much for me and this was literally up there. My mom was a fangirl of a solo artist back in her time, back in my country (since I'm not from m'sia) stageshows were like from 12pm to 3am and her fave artist was so popular like exo that he always showed up last just so other ppl won't leave the place after seeing him xD. My mom went to see her fave singer with her dad since my grandma wasn't much of a music person ahah and now I got to see my fave boys with my mother and I'm lowkey excited to go to a concert with my daughter someday (if I ever get lucky hehe) Fangirling runs in my blood y'alls.

Conclusion is, when you really want something..then go for it guys!! Don't be afraid to ask, just go FOR IT. Even if things don't work out at first then do not quit, don't EVER give up on your dreams (not just abt exo or concerts but real life ambition and dreams lol) Imagine IF I didn't ask my mother to go see EXO this year, my friend would've made a total fool out of me on that night istg I'm mad but ahah boohoo for her.

Also!! ALWAYS, ALWAYS BELIEVE IN THE POWER OF A PRAYER, this is important. I've been praying to God every chance I get, silently hoping to see EXO for one last time and I never stopped even after I've met them ahah. You might find it silly but trust me, HE hears everything, always did and always will.. It just takes time and the best things come to those that are patient ;) My little heart has this tiny dream of wanting to meet the boys over and over again, but when it was officially announced that EXO will be coming to Malaysia again, I just knew I might have to pass this time so I'm most thankful to GOD for giving me this opportunity.

I sincerely hope everyone out there gets to MEET THEM TOO because its just magical you know, about how a group of boys could make you feel a certain way and its not just me but even they feel the same when they're on stage with us by their sides. Ok now the words are going from 1k to 3.5k so I'm gonna stop here I guess hehe. End of story is that, Dreams Really Do Come True. So never stop dreaming, fight for yourself and for what you love, GO FOR IT. Where there's a will, there's always a way so don't be afraid of getting out of your comfort zone and take a big leap of faith. After all, if you don't step up from your place and you'll always be standing in the same spot. This doesn't only apply to concerts and oppas but for your studies as well guys, study hard alrighttt!

Never forget, Dreams do come true! You just have to believe in yourself to reach them! <3

+Also to my lovely followers on twitter/wattpad and even my subbies on AFF that met me that day by the Green Gate, I hope I wasn't too awkward with you guys haha I didn't think I'd meet up with any but I did my best to reply to the dms you sent me. WHO would've guess I would meet around like 10 to 20 people, I'm shy and quiet by nature but I was so happy to be able to talk, fangirl with you guys and even take pictures(send them to meee~) so I'm shook but glad to be senpai for a day AHAHA. Thank you for your kind words on my works and the hUGS AWW, you have no idea how much it means to me and I mentioned a little spoiler for my upcoming fanfic didn't I ? x) *told y'all not to expose me and this one chick deadass shouted my username to find me* shakin ma head girlie but ily2 keke

Guess it ends here, guys! I hope what I wrote up there was inspiring LOL or you could learn something from my own experience. See you guys next time ;)