My boyfriend isn't very pleased with me lately, and he recently fell into depression and taking medication for it.

Yeah, that's how bad I am. There's a really long story to it, but to cut it short:

He thinks I don't care about him, nor do I love him even though I assure him that I do. Though, he doesn't believe that because of how I've treated him. I talked to his cousin which he told me not to talk to, I unintentionally 'acted close' with his friends, although I know them and we're friends, and I don't really take him seriously during arguments, since I think most of them are quite petty. 

I don't really enjoy being told what to do and what not to do, which might have been the biggest downfall in the relationship. I feel like maybe, I'm considering myself more than him. 

So, I don't know, I'm trying to make an effort in bettering myself for him and I told him I would, but he's not pleased. And it takes a lot for me to be really expressive towards him, so this is kinda a lot of effort, I believe that I'm placing in. 

I constantly inquire about him and how he's doing, give him small messages to make his day, I try and take care of him by suggesting him to do this or that, I encourage him in what he does, reassure him when he gets negative about himself and all that. But he's still not very pleased. I'm trying to show small signs to him that, yes, I do care about him.

Last night when I inquired about something, and he got upset by that and then left the conversation for a while. I apologised while he was away and when he came back, he replied with an "It's okay". I saw the message, and didn't reply. But not purposely. My sibling was around and I was afraid he might look through my chat if he saw me conversing with him. Then when I came back he was obviously upset about me not replying to that and he thought that I was shrugging it off??? Not really sure. 

Today, he went on about me not putting effort into him and that he thinks I dislike him, when I connnnnnstantly say that I don't? There's nothing for me to dislike about him, and I have no reason to dislike anything about him...

ugh I don't know if I'm even making sense this is stressful and it's upsetting me 

I feel so inadequate around him, like I can't do anything right. I don't say the right things and majority of the time he's upset with me. And it doesn't help that he has depression I just- it makes things a bit hard, like one tiny move I make I screw things up and it just becomes chaotic and ugh