Have you ever feel like you don't belong to the world? Feel like you don't fit with everything around you?

How do you handle with those things? And those feelings?

I don't know what should I do. I'm lost.

On the outside, I fit just fine. I concerse just fine with my friends. But deep inside i feel different. I don't feel like I fit with them.

I'm lost.

To the point that I once thought of ending my life.

But because I know that's wrong, I didn't do it. I still have hope that everything will be fine. I got to think that my parents, especially my mom, would be so disappointed if I did.

Last holiday I overcome that thought, the questioning, the lost feeling. I experienced something that make me feel loved.

But I can't help but to feel lost again. Today, I once again feel I don't fit with the world.

What would make me feel better? How do I escape from this feeling? Without ending my life.