This blog is basically about how feelings are involved in everything we do, and not the romantic ones cuz honestly that would be cringe worthy and no that’s just not me. Ew

Getting straight to the point, my question is

If there weren’t any feelings involved, in what you did, wouldn’t everything be so much easier?

I’m the type of person who is extremely empathetic. Someone’s grief affects me so much that I get depressed and they become the only thing I think of all day long.

 No matter what I say, I can’t help but think about what the other person will feel about it. So I end up keeping everything inside until it explodes.

Honestly if feelings weren’t there, everything would be a whole lot better yea? Everything would be so much ing easier. Think about it, no more sappy romance stories about them hating each other first and then falling in love instantly, no jealousy,no hurt and no comfort. And  whole ton of drama gone.

You could tell someone you hate them and not feel an ounce of guilt. I can't do anything wihtout caring about people's feelings and its furstrating honestly.

Another thing I hate, is them pretending like they are the most pitiful people in this entire planet, that they are the only ones who experienced betrayal. They go on and on and on about how they are so depressed about that one person who betrayed them or hurt their feelings. So ing tired of people acting like they are the only ones who matter. They act like they have been bullied all their lives when they are tall, pretty and smart since they were born. (the smart part)

And then one other thing, acting like you can’t tell people your inner turmoil, acting like you are helpless. And then after a lot of “coaxing” from others, they finally, finally tell what they feel, and why they are oh so depressed that they can’t sleep at night.

I ing despise people like that. And ironically, i'm surrounded by them. I am so tired of dealing with their but i can't tell it to their faces cuz that will hurt them and honestly make me a horrible person and a bad friend. I dont want that. I just want them to be honest.

If it was me, I’d let the whole world know what I’m feeling instead of seeking attention like that. And yes I do that, at least to my friends, I tell them when I’m sad and when I can’t take from this world cuz I hate pretending. Even I can’t tell people what I’m feeling cuz that will hurt them. I can’t tell my friend that she should stop being so negative and just snap out of it, cuz that will hurt her and she will mistrust me.

But why be so overdramatic? Why not seek help normally?

Why fake smiles? It’s not like you’re a celebrity or Barack Obama. Nobody will eat u up if you normally tell people or someone you find special your problems. Why play this unnecessary game of push and pull? You are a perfectly normal average person so why do u need to fake smiles, read all those depressing quotes put up all those conflicted posts and just act like you are such a deep person. Why?

I mean look at donald trump, he says whatever the he wants and people support him. So why can't you?

By now you must be thinking why am I ranting here of all places, so excuse me I was too lazy to make an acc on tinybuddah and post this there.

Back to the topic

My question is, why do you need to pretend?

I have so much more to say. But I am so confused that I have no idea what to say anymore lol.

My best friend is leaving in a month or so. We were supposed to part after finishing college next year but she is leaving now due to some circumstances. I am sort of socially awkward. I get all nervous when the attention is on me like when a teacher asks you something and you panic a little? Yes only to that extent. My bff is the most precious person to me and I love her. But now she is leaving, we may or may not ever see each other again. Every day is stressful. My finals are coming up(a pre-medical student here)  and I have no motivation to study, I’m easily distracted and on top of that my bff is leaving, we fight every day and its sort of really bad when you fight with a person you really care about, cuz you know what they might be feeling but you don’t at the same time. So yea I feel terrible these days and the drama is never ending.

So I want to tell everyone out there, please don’t put others into a difficult spot. If you are playing push and pull please don’t take it too far. If you want help and you pretending that you don’t, they keep offering you help and you keep refusing, while you honestly do want help, please stop doing that. They feel terrible inside. Go to them, explain whatever or however much of your situation you want, who knows maybe they can actually help? Or if they can’t then at least there is someone who knows how you feel.

But that doesn’t mean you can go and tell this to everyone. Only those who you love, who u trust and you love you back.

Stop pretending, be a little honest with yourself. Stop smiling if you aren’t happy. Cry when you are sad. Keep it simple and avoid being a drama queen.

Happy New Year ^^

Annyeong

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Thank you for reading my rant lol. Tell me your thoughts in the comments ^^