And now me coming out to my best friends, sister and parents~ (if anyone cares!!!) :3

ok, some of u may already know this but I'm biual. I'm open about it, because yeah... I grew up with ppl accepting each other so I don't see it as a weird thing whatsoever. But I know how this world works, so it's not like whenever I meet someone new I'll say: "hey yeah I am bi!" because 1) I'm shy as + hoarse, squeaky voice and 2) what if u meet someone homophobic???

Homophobes are the worst. I hate them.

Moving on! I told my little sister first about it, because, well, she's part of the lgbt+ community as well and we have such a ing great relationship. So of course she was accepting and it made me very happy :3 then I told another great friend, who also accepted it, but the hard part was telling my best friend, platonic soulmate, meme lord- u get the drill.

So we were biking back from school a few months ago and our conversation already was a bit in the lgbt+ mood, so I thought: Ok, this is it...  gogogoggogoo and then I told him: "I think I'm biual'. let's just say he was so ing happy? Happy I told him and just happy to have someone like me, I guess. Idk it just warmed my heart and I'm so ing delighted!!!<333 

A few days later I told my parents about it... My parents are open minded, but they're from a different generation after all and sometimes they make racist or homophobic "jokes", which I certainly do not like. But, yeah, we talk about and other nasty things during diner, so I just thought I'd tell them during diner. And I did. My mother's first reaction was a bit positive and negative... first she said "I accept you as you are" something along those lines, but then said: "but I'd like it more if you just came home with a guy..." So then my dad butted in a said: "No, I don't care who you fall in love with, as long as you're happy!" Then my mom fell silent and agreed with him. 

Let's just say that my mom hoped for grandchildren (which I can understand!), but I don't want children, and that dream of hers will be crushed even if I find a man to love. Of course she says that "when u grow older, u will want to have children" and I can't disagree bcuz ppl can change their minds! But, I just... *whispers* hate *coughs* children the reason I will never EVER read/write/like m-preg *shivers*

Anyway! My mother won't really believe I also like girls until I actually have a girlfriend. But relationships scare the out of me, so.. yeah.. I have had one boyfriend who I did not even love (it was just a mere crush?) and I wanted to break it off as fast as possible because I felt so restricted and not good... but I have my social problems so it took me almost half a year to find courage to break up lmaooooo. I'm glad I did tho!

I... have never been in love (my immense love for exo doesn't count!!!). My best friend hasn't either, as he told me. Never have I ever felt the feeling of wanting to share my whole life with someone... except with my best friend, but that's not in a romantic way.

Maybe my Dutch teacher was right, maybe relationships just aren't for me :') (yeah my ing Dutch teacher talks about students behind their backs to other students. So I heard from others that she had said that "I wasn't the type to get into a relationship")

Before you all think "huh but how can u know if you're bi when u never fell in love??!?!?1" well, I know I have a crush when I feel one. I'm attracted to males and females, bcuz, let's be honest, girls are just so soft and ladfajsdlfjasdk I wanna squish them!!! :c

I hope you'll all accept me as well!!! :D

Just wanted to tell you this hehehe♥