What is wrong with me..?

I envy those who are sick..

What is wrong with me..?

Why am I behaving like this..?

why..?

Why..

I might say I envy them cause they can feel the pain..

Pain signaling that I still able to feel..

But the truth is I just crave for death..

When will my time comes..?

I envy those who are sick cause they are close to death..

Am I crazy..?

Aren't I''m afraid of death..?

What about the one that loves me..?

What about my fri...ends..?*smirks* stops dreaming and back to reality..

But reality hurt..

I hate me..

I hate life..

I hate reality..