"Unwanted" is actually inspired by my break up recently... I mean, just the forward. It's actually what's going on in my head. I hate him so much... He told me that I'm his first but I always had a feeling that I wasn't. But I'll tell you that he was my first. And since the day I gave it to him, he wanted it everyday and I was stupid enough to keep giving it to him. One day I told him how I felt about always wanting to have ; that I felt like a toy instead of his girlfriend. So then he stopped asking for it. And then, gradually, I felt him drifting away from me. I felt him getting bored with me. I felt him change. I told him that maybe we should take a break, but he said that we should just break up. I didn't argue; how can I stop someone who isn't even here anymore? It's only been almost two months and he's already talking to other girls. I figured he must have already been talking to them when we were still together. I only know he's been talking to them because he's still friends with my mom on FB and she saw him posting stuff about his "new girl" or she was tagging him or something. It hurt to hear, but it's whatever since we aren't even together anymore. I didn't tell anyone that he was my first and how we grew apart because I refused to give it to him so whenever someone asked why we broke up, I just told them that I was mean to him. Everyone already thinks I'm the bad one anyway, so I just let them think what they want to think.

I really hate him... but I always find myself thinking about him.