So, he messaged me today. He tried to call me but I didn't pick up, so he messaged me. This is a little bit of what I said to him:

"Of course it doesnt make me happy when stop thinking of you! But that doesnt mean thinking of you makes me happy either!! It makes me sad to think of you so I just dont!

You should have thought about all this before breaking up with me because now there's no use of trying... I tried to fix us, I came to YOU and tried to fix us, ME! But you, you just ended it so easily... like we were nothing. I gave you so many chances to fight for me, to see if I was actually worth SOMETHING to you!! But didnt try... you thought you did but you didnt... you just left...

You know, all you had to do was hug me. I didnt need anything else, I just needed you. But instead you came to say goodbye. And I thought, "What right do I have to stop him from leaving? Why should I stop someone who doesnt want to be with me anymore?"

And all you had to do was be a man and hold onto whatever was still left... hold onto me. If I really mattered that much to you, then no matter what I thought you would have held onto me. But I only meant so much to you... and you let me go."

And then we kept going back and forth at each other. He kept saying how he messed up and how he wanted to be with me still and I told him that I just wanted to better myself and focus on me before I start a life with someone else. And then he said that he was outside of my house and for me to go out so that he could see me one last time. That just ticked me off and I told him:

"You cant just ing show up whenever you want to. Dont you know how hard i've been working to move on? And then suddenly you decide that you dont want to be lonely anymore and come out of the blue saying that you still want me?? You're two months too late... Just go home before I call the cops. Don't ing test me. And remember what my dad said? He said he'll always take my side so leave before I have him come out."

And then he mentioned something about how he didnt mean to take so long and that other things have been happening with his family so I responed with:

"Dont come anymore. I'm not something you can pick up whenever you feel lonely. I'm a person, a human who is working on bettering herself instead of trying to stay in the past.

And if so many things has happened then just focus on the important things, the REAL things that are actually happening. Stop trying to fix this and help your family out."

And then he said how he was sorry and left...

Yeah, I dont know anymore. I just felt like getting this off my chest. If you've read this far, thanks! I might write my next fanfic based on this event so if you are waiting please either subscribe to me or just comeback to this post and check if I've posted it up or not. I pre-write all my fanfics so the fanfic might not be up until the middle of summer. But yeah, thanks, again, for reading if you did.