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Hello, friends who probably won't be reading this.

I know I said I would be leaving Asianfanfics, and I still do plan on it, but due to the recent news released on April 1st, I've decided that this is the only place where I can see what other people think on the matter.

So, as most of my friends and readers know, I am a heavily Jongin-biased person. There are also some, but fewer, who know that I am also heavily Krystal-biased. To those of you who follow neither f(x) or EXO diligently, it was revealed and confirmed on April 1 that the two were dating. Many of you might think that I was overreacting, but I did cry, and I didn't know whether it was out of happiness, sadness, or anger. Now that I think about it, it was probably a mix of all three. On one hand, I felt so sad and betrayed because while I am only a fan, I was disappointed that he didn't expose it right away. On the other hand, I was so caught up with my love for him that it almost felt like he was cheating on us fans. I was so disconcerted that I had to take an hour or two to run (an activity that I only ever do when I feel sad or confused) and cry and just be alone. While I was panting and catching my breath, I realized something: I was being irrational and way out of line. Those who know me personally would know how big of a fan I am of both Jongin and Soojung, and that my support for Jongin overcomes almost every other valuable thing I have in life. As a fan who supported him from the very beginning, of course there is a certain attachment there that will never be broken. But while I love him with my whole heart, I am also just one of the 3 million fans that he has. And to be frank, I think that the fans who are real and who do fully support him would be more accepting of his new relationship. After that, I slowly realized that I would much rather have him be with Jung Soojung, who in my opinion, is the epitome of perfection, and who has known him for over ten years, than with anyone else. Jongin isn't a naiive little child anymore, and he most definitely isn't someone who would dive into something that he isn't ready for. For now, I've ultimately decided to support him in his decisions and endeavours, and even if they don't end up married and with 3 kids like I now want them to be, I will let them settle it on their own and will love them both separately and together. I hope everyone else can do the same.

On another note, I've been really into Seventeen lately. Like, I've been a lowkey fan for quite some time, but I recently watched one of their variety show appearances and I might have sort of slipped into the diamond life. Sigh. I hate stanning big groups ;_;