< / face 01 > Kim Taeyeon (SNSD)

< / face 02 > Kim Yerim (Red Velvet)

 

< / prsnlty > 
> passionate, romantic, smart, reliable, honest, calm, sensitive, fluffy, innocent ¬

 ¬ closed-off, socially awkward, lazy, sophisticated, sharp-tongued <

 

< / trivias > 

01 "I was... jealous." ¬ Miyou's first crush on a guy was directed to Lee Jungyu, the guy better known as Yeoreum's first and only boyfriend- and as everyone knows, it didn't end too well for her. She decided not to tell Yeou about her feelings, though, because she feared her cousin would've given up on Jungyu as well.

Andy was a completely different story. Andrew Warlock was an exchange student from the UK, whom Miyou started dating shortly after the start of their third highschool year- for once, because he was really, really cute and for seconds, because who could've been a better English teacher than her own boyfriend? So basically, they dated for four months and were often included to group dates by Yeoreum and Jungyu to help them out and simply have fun together- yet it was revealed shortly after that Andy had originally set an eye on Yeoreum, and only dated Miyou to be close to her and -possibly- change Yeom's mind. Miyou broke up after hearing so, yet lied to Yeoreum about her reasons for not dating him anymore, simply stating "I guess I never really loved him" -which was not all too wrong, to be honest- and got scolded jokingly by Yeoreum for "being to lazy to fall in love", when Miyou actually felt a new feeling growing deep inside of her- jealousy.

Song Kijoon was the final aspect for Miyou's rage to boil over. The day before the group was going to go on the trip, he begged Miyou to accompany him somewhere more private- like a café. Her joy and hopes for a possible love confession were all blown away though, when he took her hands in his and asked her questions about her cousin, Yeoreum- Was she really that happy with Jungyu? Were there any signs of them breaking up soon? Did she ever talk about him with her friends?

Once again having her heart broken due to her cousin, she wordlessly left the café and practically ran home, hiding under her blanket for ours so no one would see her puffy eyes or hear her sobs- until she had the strength to grab her phone and call Yeoreum.

02 "We will make a pretty woman out of you with these!" ¬ Together with Yeoreum, Miyou came up with a list of things she wants to do in the future when they were both sixteen. Two weeks after the incident, she went through the old photos and drawings and cds and stuff she connected to her beloved cousin and found the list of tasks, called "dream bubbles"... some of them may sound hillarious to others, yet Miyou is thrilled to make each and all of them come true to help herself mourn and move on as a better person.

03 "Don't worry, we know what to do." ¬ She remembers trying to overcome her fear of heights the next day, by climbing up the tallest tree in her backyard- because the guys had sad it would work-, and sixteen-year old Miyou spent two whole hours crying up there before, finally, one of the guys managed carrying her down. Since then, her fear of heights grew, yet she stll dreams of being a part of the sky and flying high, like the clouds she has always envied for their lazy lifestyle.

04 "I will always remember this day as a beautiful one." ¬ The same guy who carried her down became her longterm-crush soon after that day- it's been one year since she started paying more attention towards him and seeing herself fall in love once more.

05 "Achao!" ¬ Miyou has always been allergic to cats and was super sad about it, because -despite anything that's got some wings attached- cats are her favourite animals. Now that she's older and there are anti-allergic cats available as well, she's sure she'll soon have another point to cross out on her list.

06  "Yes, I knew." ¬ Miyou has known about Yeoreum's depressive state for a longer while and talked to her about it on a cold winter's day, when they were both cuddled up in a warm blanket and possibly netflixing, drinking tea- yet she has always respected her cousin's wish to never talk to anyone about it, and so she never told anyone, sometimes treating the signs of Yeoreum's borderline personality at home, eyeing her sadly, yet never scolding or judging her. Knowing about her state makes Miyou suffer even more now that Yeoreum has died, though, thinking she was partially guilty for the state her cousin was in on the day of the accident. 

07 ¬ Some more trivial things about Miyou: H 160cm, W 42kg, hazel eyes, naturally wavy- & black-haired, milky skin; secret dream- becoming a stewardess and travelling the world; She has an affinity for rainbows that no one can explain. She sees one and she has to take a picture of it. Excuse me, tons of pictures (Current count: 389.) To Miyou, they're the most beautiful things in this world.favourite animals: sheep; foxes; anything that has wings attached; hobbies- lazing around, cuddling and sleeping, staying at home and doing the chares, playing the piano, listening to others (Yeoreum!) as they sing, netflix, floating on water, reading and basically hiding from the sun; fashion style- fluffy and romantic, reminding you of a sheep whenever you look at her, much wool and cotton, beige, brown and white; prefers the youthful and natural makeup style.  chase domestic science as an elective only because her boyfriend wanted her to, yet strangely found it interesting after she broke up with him after four months, getting good grades in it and contradicting her usual somewhat lazy reputation. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

< / cnnctns > 

 

 

Having grown up living in the same street in Yeongu ever since Yeoreum moved to Korea, these two cousins were fated to stick together- their fathers were brothers, their mothers best friends since highschool. It was a whiff of fate that their fathers decided to overtake their father's company together in the time where children form their strongest bonds- elementary school. 

Through the following years, the two girls developed a bond of trust and worship that was only topped by the connection the sisters Yeoreum and Yeojin had, and they could often be seen spending nights at each others houses, bathing together as children or (later) simply chilling on their beds, netflixing and consuming take-out food in combination with fine tea and ice cream. 

Miyou, as a single child, had somewhat become a bit spoiled by the time they entered highschool, and openly behaved like it, resulting in a lot of people distancing themselves from her, while Yeoreum stayed by her side, enlightening her days with her smile, helping her fall asleep as she sang her lullabies over the phone. It had mostly been a "always receive, barely give" relationship for Miyou (unconsciously, of course) until the dark days when she found out about Yeoreum's depressed state. 

Her cousin's moods kept fluctuating over weeks, eventually months, and she seemed to often call-in sick for more than just a day pretty often. Miyou, maybe a bit sophisticated, yet not dumb, soon found out about a variety of possible reasons for Yeou's state and decided to confront her with her worries- the state she found her in when she entered her cousin's room was alarming: Final tears streaming down her face, Yeoreum was occupied bandaging her forearms, guessing no one would be home before late that night- when she realized Yong was standing beside her, calmy watching her, she didn't react shocked- she looked guilty. Miserable.

A calm, slow conversation later, Miyou knew that the time of "always receive, barely give" was -had to be!- over. After cleaning up the mess of old bandages, desinfection and other stuff, she wrapped Yeoreum in a fluffy blanket, pulled her onto her bed, carefully rested her cousin's head in her lap and gently caressed her hair for her to silently cry and fall asleep, no television playing, no tea being served. Just the two of them, bonding anew.

Ever since that day, the two have been unseperable, and -though it surely was wrong- Miyou kept her promise of never telling anyone about Yeoreum's situation, and silently watched over her, stepping back for her to fall in love and date freely, keeping her from as much harm as possible- becoming her warm blanket, spending comfort and light whenever it was needed, being sure to receive lots of love and the best answers to each and every question she ever had.

 

"Hey, Yong! Got everything ready for tomorrow?" "Hn." "What's that supposed to mean...? Are you out of something? I can-" "I unpacked." "W-what?" That was new to Yeoreum. This morning, Miyou had practically shoved a list of a ton of things she still had to pack upon her nose, and they had laughed about how she was going to put all of these things into her small trolley- so why was she behaving so weird all of a sudden?

"I won't accompany you on that stupid trip!" "Yong-" "Don't call me that!" "Yong, why are you talking to me like that all of a sudden?" "You really don't know? Fine, I'll tell you!" Yeoreum could hear her cousin huffing on the other side on the phone- most-likely, she was suppressing her tears. "Kijoon talked to me today." "But that's great! I thought you liked him-" "I do, but can you guess who he's got his eyes on?" There was another moment of silence, another pause that made Yeoreum realize this was possibly going to get even harder. 

 

"He told me he has been in love with you ever since you helped him out with that one group project in our second year." She wanted to ask if that was a bad joke- Miyou surely was just toying with her? But the sobs on the other end of the line told Yeoreum otherwise, knowing Miyou actually was not the type to cry easily. "Listen, I never knew about this, okay? I barely know him-" "It was the same with Jungyu. And Andy." What? "I knew them before you did. Had my eyes set on them before you did. Yet Jungyu fell for you right away, and even Andy left me because he 'couldn't stand being with his second chaice any longer when his first one was right in front of his nose on every single group date!" "Yong, please, I didn't intend anything like that when we asked you two out! Just come with us, you'll see, everything will be perfectly fine between us after we talked-" "Aren't we talking now?" "I meant in person, Yong. Once you've calmed down and-" "I told you to stop calling me that. And I definitely won't come with you on that stupid trip! I never want to see you again! Get the hell out of my life!" "Yo- Miyou, wait!-" And with these childish, yet still painful words, the phone call between Yeoreum and Miyou ended.

 

 

 

 

¬ Lee Jungyu (former crush); Yeoreum's boyfriend;
    × Regardless of the feelings Miyou once had for him, they're still on pretty good terms with each other and enjoy each others company as much as it's possible in their stuation. He doesn't know about Miyou's former feelings, yet still realizes something must have happened for her to be so on alert whenever they accidentally touch each other or even just get too close. Besides that, they're chill!

 

¬ Andrew "Andy" Warlock; ex-boxfriend; 

    × To make a long story short, he somewhat broke Miyou's heart before he went back to England two months later. Since then he was never seen again (and basically just is mentioned for completeness).

 

¬ Heo Kijoon; current crush 

    × All that's left to say is that Miyou plans on confessing her feelings to him and then get over him quickly to be able to move on- and to be able to scratch two more points on her Dream Bubbles list.

 

 

 

The angsty squad.

[Just here because I would've felt guilty for not including them.]

 

...Maybe there's a nice guy who can finally bring her heart and soul peace?

 

 

 

"Wh-what happened? Where is everyone?" Realization hit her as she let her still half-closed eyes wander through the room. Her parents. A monitor. Two infusions leading to one small system she was sure of being connected to the side of her neck, feeling it sting a little whenever she moved her head to the left. Yes... an accident. She had faintly heared the paramedics talking about it when she was shoved into the ambulance.

"Where is Yeoreum?" She saw her mother exchanging looks with her father before he spoke up. "Darling... You've been sleeping for two days. Yeoreum on the other side... didn't make it." 

Miyou hid her face in her hands, tears streaming down her face as she allowed her mother to gently hug her on the hospital bed.

Despite seeing the whole thing as an accident and a tragedy that will hunt her for a long, long time, Miyou sees it as a chance for everyone in their circle of "somewhat friends" to grow closer to each other and -contrary to that- all start living their own individual lifes as well, knowing they all were so attached to Yeoreum and some of them might have even partially directed their life after her, possibly even making her feel guilty for all the attention her friends spent on her, depression often making you feel like you're not worth it, after all- And even if they didn't want to be closer to her, Miyou would at least want to be given to thank everyone for loving Yeoreum, each person in his or her very own way.

 

< / how are they after "the incident" > 

Miyou is still suffering from a mild concussion she got when her head bumped against the window she was leaning on, therefore not remembering the events from the accident itself (even though she woke up right before because of the screaming of the others, seeing another car heading towards them on their side of the road. Luckily, there were no other severe damages to her, only a few bruises and two light cuts across her left temple- nothing too serious that can't be concealed with a small amount of concealer after it's healed. 
What doesn't heal so easily on the other side, are her feelings. Miyou doesn't remember about her cousin's final words, and the others decided not to tell her for now, knowing she'd be completely destroyed by the fact that her cousin somehow had a willing hand in this whole matter- and so she's left to think that Yeoreum simply wasn't capeable of driving that day, maybe overly tired from getting less to no sleep after the long talk and, later, argument they had had over the phone until late- so she's left to feel at least partially guilty as well.

Whenever she feels like everything is getting too hard for her and she'd actually prefer giving up, she closes her eyes and remembers the smallest, yet most precious moments she shared with Yeou, and keeps going.

< / what were they doing before it happened > 

She was playing with her phone for a while, only to conceal the fact that she worried too much about her cousin after all the bad things Miyou had said to her last night, and after adjusting her position in her seat and finally leaning her head on the window, starring out until she finally fell asleep, secretly gulping at the nervousity she felt because she knew she had to apologize to Yeoreum as soon as possible, eyeing her cousin as obvious as it could be... until she fell asleep, only to wake up the moment the others screamed when the second car came driving towards them, and someone next to her grabbed her hand out of pure instinct.

 

< / commnts > I'm so tired!! It's 7am right now! I'm going to bed! :-)) <3

By the way! Unnie helped me with the quotes and the colouring and the extra gifs and pictures! I'm not that good at coding and tweaking apps yet, it must be a lot of work! Unnie says you make all of your layouts yourself, so kudos to you!! :-0

< / questns > Is this too long? It seems too long. ;___; But it was fun!  Did you enjoy reading Miyou's app? Was it angsty enough? I never wrote angsty stuff before! :-0