I'm sure we've all had these days. Feeling under the weather...feeling sadder than the previous day. Feeling out of it even if we want to actually make it seem like we've got it all under control. Lately, I've been having those days. 

I have joined asianfanfics as an outlet to write about my love for my ship or more often, just an outlet for me to vent out all my feelings and frustrations into writing. This has been my safe haven-- a place where I feel most comfortable at when I feel like everything is going under or whenever I feel stressed. But lately it isn't so anymore. I've been thinking this has been more trouble than what it is worth. That joy I've been feeling whenever I write isn't there anymore. Every time I write now, I feel like it isn't serving its purpose anymore.  

I'm sorry if I've been disappointing lots of readers with all my updates. I have some followers in twitter here and even if I seem to be just happy there all the time, I really am not in a good place right now. And I'm sorry that it shows in my works. 
 

...I've been thinking of deactivating my AFF account for good once Shoebox ends. 

Just today, I've been thinking of quitting writing all together, too.