Hello again everyone!

It’s been such a long time since I last made a blog post! I’m not very good when it comes to blogging, or openly talking about myself… But I thought that good news are always something nice to share, and since I was already telling you all about my illness, might as well continue XD.

If you don’t want to read any specifics, but want to know the outcome, read the paragraph that starts with ‘Conclusion!’ :D.

So, on the last blog post I made (back in October 2014… ouch…), I said that I was getting better, and that I was feeling stronger, and so on. Unfortunately (and some of you could already tell) I got worse again. I won’t get into many details, but I had some complication with my medication, and I had to take an even stronger one, which has a lot of side effects. Just so some of you can understand, it was a medicine that can compare to chemotherapy (that cancer treatment), and has similar side effects, like hair loss, nausea, weakness, etc. I think I don’t even need to say this, but the beginning of 2015 definitely wasn’t very good for me…

But the meds worked! I started getting better from the IBD, and there was a point around the middle of the year that the only bad things I was feeling were from the meds I was taking, not from my illness anymore. So after some deliberating with my doctor, we decided to remove that very strong med, since it was only doing harm then (I was so nauseated I wasn’t even eating full meals, I could barely keep my food in…) and see what happened – as in, if I was going to continue doing well, or if as soon as the med went away, my illness would start up again. This was around June last year, and despite getting nervous about removing the medicine, I ended up doing really well! I soon started feeling better, not getting nausea anymore, and so on~.

It wasn’t the smoothest road though. During the end of the year, around August ‘till December, my illness started sort of flaring up again. It was like it was trying to return, but wasn’t sure yet XD. That was a moment of time where I had to trust myself a lot. Since my IBD is directly connected to my feelings and anxiety, I knew I couldn’t feel stressed out, or it would simply come back stronger. I did my best to be calm, and believe in the other meds I was taking (the lighter ones that don’t make me feel bad. They’re the ones I’ve been taking since the illness started, and probably will continue to take them for the rest of my life. Or at least until someone comes up with a cure!), and somehow, things normalized again after a while.

During December, I had many tests done, a lot of check-ups (which I was used to, since these past 2 years all I have been doing is medical tests...), and I just kept getting better. I’m still weak and without strength, but my flare up is gone.

Conclusion! I’m officially in remission now! For any of you who don’t know what remission is, that is when your illness is quiet, almost like it doesn’t exist at all. It doesn’t advance anymore while in remission. My doctor even started reducing the dosage of my meds, and only scheduled to meet me after 4 months! (Which feel like a miracle to me, because I’ve spent the last year and a half seeing her every two weeks @_@).

So I’ve been working on getting my body healthy again! Getting nutrients inside me, starting to exercise again, trying to at least go back to doing what normal people can do without trouble ^^. I was debilitated for so long, that it’s been difficult (I can’t walk around for more than 20 minutes without feeling sick…), but little by little I’m improving, and I’m confident that I’ll only get better from now on!

And I also feel like I have been writing more! The challenge I did during last year (here, if you haven’t seen it) was really great, because it showed me that even while I’m feeling ill, writing is a thing that I can always do, and I love that!

That’s pretty much what I had to say! And I know that I can be pretty confusing sometimes (especially when I’m writing about myself  O_o), so if you didn’t understand something, or if you have any questions about what I said or my illness, feel free to ask, I don’t mind answering!

It feel nice to write a blog post again, I hope I get to be more active in the site this year <3

Thank you all for reading this, and thank you for all the support given!