Yeah… Joker or Clown… Or Nyayyy as I call… You are right… I'll just look down from the sky and watch over her… I can love as much as I like but I don't need to show her…

But for reminder, this is not crush, you know… I'm sure it's love… So, please don't laugh at me… Okay?? Plus I'm not with cardiomegaly, big heart… LOL

And I'm not quitting… I'm not letting go… It's just I'm waiting for her… Even if she will never come, I'll still wait… Coz I know myself… I love once for only one in my life… No one except me can understand myself…

So, let me continue loving her… I'll stay by her side as she likes… I don't care what she will do… I don't care even if she will use me… But I know she won't… She is the most lovely kid I've ever known…

And you, hey you, yes… i'm calling you, kid… If you ever read this… Please pretend like you know nothing like always… I'm sorry… But please don't ignore me… I can't stop myself… It's like The higher the Sun, the Crazier the Fool… 

I've said I want to hear nothing about him… But you can come find me if you wanna talk about him… I can listen for you… I have to accept him if he's the one you love… I can do everything for you… Don't forget it… I'm always ready for you… 

You have to return nothing… I'm free… HaHa… You can use me as you like… You can substitute me as you like… I'm okay as long as it will make you happy… Got it?

Last word… Love you… And sorry…