It's nearing Christmas, yay?

Christmas break is almost here, which means that my deadlines are nearing as well -_- BUT because of the storm, there is a chance that all those deadlines would be moved to next year!!

but I didn't write this post to talk about school haha

I literally just need some girl-to-girl advice over here (or if there are guys willing to help out im up for that too).

soooo I used to like this guy and we were superrrr close last year. Since we're not classmates anymore, we just sorta drifted apart and got on with our lives. I moved on from my crush ever since.

I have a happy crush now and he's just soo nice. He's athletic, smart, FUNNY AS HELL, good-looking, great with kids, has great taste in clothing and is very friendly. The reason why I don't like him seriously is because there's a chance that he likes someone else so :/ (plus he's friends with a f-boy)

During our first few months of school, he and I were seatmates. I was a bit shy that time because it was my first time meeting him. While we were waiting for our teacher to arrive, one of my friends called me over to her table. I went and asked her what she wanted and she just told me to go look at my seatmate's table.

So I checked it and saw a note crumpled and hidden inside his table and everyone around me told me to go open it, which I did.

Basically the note went like, "Dear Diary, it's CL class rn but I'm doing my math hw #thuglyf #rebel. OMG my seatmate is so hot omg"

Everyone in our area knew about that note so I was kinda embarrassed.

Flash-forward to the present. Yesterday, my best friend told me about how Miguel (his friend/our classmate) and my happy crush were talking. She was asking if I knew anything about a diary he wrote about me back in first term. I was a bit confused cuz like why would they even remember that?

I kept confirming and asking her things like "was it on a small pieace of paper?" "what exactly did he say?"

We were talking about the same thing and she started telling me about how he could actually like me.

There had been instances and mixed signals where he just confused the hell outta me. First, it was the note. Second, there was a time when he "proposed" to me with one of our props for our project. Third, he keeps winking at me.

I told her it could just be his way of acting towards girls or he could just be joking about everything (he is the class clown after all).

OH BUT REMEMBER THAT SERIOUS CRUSH THAT I WAS SUPER CLOSE WITH BUT NOT ANYMORE SINCE WE'RE NOT IN THE SAME CLASS

yeah, he confuses me too. Whenever I walk through the corridors and he happens to be there, he'd either block my way or just grab my attention, literally. He would grab my arm or try to hug me or something. I just really don't know anymore. Like why act this way when I don't like you like that anymore?

and here i am, sitting with my tablet, getting a break from school and all this happening.

any advice? i want to know your guys opinions on this cuz i seriously do NOT know what to do anymore