hi, if any of you are reading

i'm 14 this year,turning 15 next year march. I was on AFF before I even was a kpop fan, funny huh? I was a SISTAR fan before I turned into a kpop fan(yeah i dont consider myself a KPOP fan), and you know, as i was googling stuff about sistar, at the mere age of 10 (2011, the year maboy was released), and i stumbled across asianfanfics. I have been hooked since then, and I stopped this year beginning. I wasn't as addicted to keeping up with all the hunhan fanfics(did i mention, i'm an avid fan of that couple), and despite me being a kpop fan still, i did not bother checking this website for hunhan fanfics. I definitely would like to blame Luhan's departure for that, jk. So, i wasn't keeping up with fics for at least 9 months. Well, here i am again, reading fanfics, for a couple of days as of now(but i can feel that i;m being addicted again, which is real bad). And tbh, i hate reading. I simply detest it. Well, part of it is because I was brought up without the good habit of reading being instilled in me. (This probably explains why i excel in maths and sciences and flunk both my languages, but oh well) Another reason is because, reading gives me this chummy feeling. It makes me feel like I'm in a different dimension, and i hate that feeling so much. I like reality, I don't like to be lulled into another realm, I hate the false sense of security fics give me. The fics make me too comfortable for my own good, it separates me from the current world, i despise that feeling. I am very realistic, very plain, very boring. I absolutely loathe the feeling of another realm, that totally differs from reality. Wolfau, Royalau, they all just don't work my way. Well, i just have to find a solution right, to get that feeling off my chest. (IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN HAPPENING, SOMEONE PLEASE HELP)

Apart from that, I'm pretty sure i'm screwed, because i'm gonna be addicted to this site again(despite the uncomfortable feeling fic give me >.>), and my next school year is just gonna be so hard ;n;. I'm probably gonna write actual fics from now on tho, since i have been inspired by many awesome authors on this site

actually i'm not sure what is the point of this blog post, but if you are reading until here, thanks! sorry that i wasted your time lolz. 

(also feel free to make friends with me bc im super antisocial and wont talk unless you initiate)