I. Am. In. Deep. .

Like holy .

My school is making a prom night -okay, cool- but I don't wanna attend the prom because I think it's a waste of time and money. Oh, speaking of money....My school or rather the girl that are planning this whole thingy want us to give money to attend the prom. I didn't want to go. I really didn't want to go. I mean, I don't like the people in my grade anyway >__> and they're all doofuses and I don't want to be sitting at prom and watching how those es amuses themselves in the most embarrassing way. No, thank you.

But my cousin wanted to go. Okay, if she wants to, she can go. I don't have any problem with that. But she has a problem with me not going to that stupid event. She got really upset, talked about how that ing party is a once-in-a-lifetime-chance and I told her every single day that I don't care and that she can go all by herself because I've got better things to do but she didn't listen. She said that she will get upset and that she will be offended for the rest of her life.

I kept saying "no" until in school, those girls aked for me and because I am so nice I approached them and asked them what they would possibly want from me. And they asked me to sign in for the prom. I didn't want to at first but then somehow I got persuaded by my cousin and those ing girls and I signed.

A few days later, they wanted 33€ ( 31,93$ / 20.99£) from me and I went home to talk to my mom about that . So I told her and she got super angry as to why I signed in the first place when i didn't want to go and why she had to pay so much for a freaking prom night. My cousin heard that and got a little upset as well, talked with my mom and told her that she should let me go to prom. I tried to tell her that I don't wanna go but she thought that I just follow my mom's instructions. 

My cousin then said that I had to come to the trip my grade will do. I said "okay, if the destination is a good one" (because I don't want to go to somewhere not worth the money) and she got angry again and said "Why are you always a spoilsport?"

And then she continued listing all the bad things about me. That I was boring, couldn't make any desicions on my own...I told her that yes, I could make desicions on my own and the only thing she did was laughing at me and calling me not assertive and oppressed. I got really pissed but didn't show nor talk and ignored for a little bit. But because I didn't want to start a fight with her, I didn't ignored her for too long and normally talked with her.

So, today I went to those girls and told them that I don't wanna attend to the party and that I don't wanna pay for it. They told me that I had to because I signed and they were able to report me to the police (because of signing and contracts and so on and so forth) so now I have to attend that ing prom. My mom thinks it's my own fault and my cousin gets angry at me when I say that I don't wanna go. 

I hate that prom and I wouldn't ever attend that ing event voluntarily.

I'm really upset right now and I'll go to sleep.

Good Night. Not.