dear no one,

well...i guess we are done. i dunno why i'm not crying. i dunno why i'm not sprawled in bed with tears pouring down my face. i dunno why i still feel like what you said was a joke. i dunno why i can still smile happily at my roomate's joke. i dunno why i'm still calm. i dunno why im like this. was i not in love with you? but i guess its because i'm feeling numb right now. i guess this physical pain in my chest right now is my heart breaking? or do i even still have a heart. why is my face twitching? and my nose itching? why is my vision blurred? why is there a lump in my throat? 

well, yeah....i guess its true....we are done..good bye no one...