Soo.....I decided to make a blog where I will just vent out...about my feelings and such. ^^ I am planning on doing this not every day or something like that. Just one days where I feel to talk. And I will curse so if that is not to your liking, then I'm sorry.

I'll start with politics. Tomorrow is my first exam and I have no idea what the I'm learning. I don't understand it. I have never understood politics anyway. I feel like I'm failing that ing exam. And in five months I will write my A-levels....I'm scared as and hell...I don't know what to do. I'm only16 and I'm not ready to get all independent and . Oh god and it's not helping that everyone pressueres me to be the best. What am I? I can't remember coming out of my mother's womb as a robot. I'm already doing my best and I don't need anyone telling me to be better. I'm already trying, okay?

The next thing I am a little bit upset about is my cousin. It's not as bad as the topic above, but it's like adding salt to a wound. It's freaking annoying.

My cousin actually lives in another city but she moved to us to do her A-levels in my city as well. She is really a nice person and whatsoever but there are some things that are getting on my nerves. She is too noisy for one and doesn't matter what I tell her: She doesn't believe me! I mean I'd understand why she wouldn't believe if I just talk crap but I don't -especially when I talk about school. We both are learning for our exams and whenever she asks me and I answer her, she sits there, staring at me and then she says: "No, I don't believe you. Better if I look it up myself." And she does it every time. And I'm just here, thinking "Then why the do you always come to me and ask me for that ? Are you ing with me or what?"

And she is really stubborn and even if she denies it: I think she's naive. This is really mean to say something like that but I can't help it. I'm just so frustrated right now. But just because I talk about her negative sides doesn't mean that she doesn't have positive sides. Her positive sides outweigh the negatives. 

And she is so racist. It sounds maybe meaner than it actually is, but it's somehow the true. She hates Asian because I like them. I don't know why she's like that. I mean, why does she hate them so much just because I like them? It doesn't get into my head. And she also doesn't like people with darker skin. It's not like she acts cold and y when someone like them is around but she is acting like that when such people are celebrities. I have no idea why.

She says: "I actually have nothing against them but because you fangirl so hard over them, I start to hate them." But why??

I just want to cry. They don't deserve to be hated because of such a silly reason. She thinks Kpop-Idols are gay because of the make up. I try to tell her that they just wear it on stage and that they do not wear it the whole time. But she won't listen and whenever I'd watch a music video of them, she'd come up and then starts talking bad 'bout them. 

And my another friend. Oh my god. She is even worse. Let me show that to you on one example. 

I (Juju), my sister and her two other friends (we're all Kpop-fans), a friend of us (Jimin..Yes a Korean girl *o*) and her other Korean friend (who can't speak German that good so Jimin is always translating) and my other friend who hates Kpop for her dear life.

So.

We were sitting on a bench and me, my sister and her two friends were talking about Baekhyun's wink in Exo Showtime. Because the two Korean girls are Kpop-fans as well they talked with us. I was seated next to my Kpop-hater-friend and the others were standing. And then she (the Kpop-hater-friend) started talking.

"Why are you always talking about Kpop? It's hurting my heart. Korea here Korea there blahblahblah. it's always Korea. I hate it." she started rambling and I shot her a look like Okay. Understood. Can you stop talking 'bout that now?

And then she almost started yelling. "Stop that. Stop that. I hate Korean!"

And I quickly said "Psssst" in hopes my Korean friends didn't hear her. But then I looked over at them and I saw Jimin narrowing her eyes. 

"-freaks. I meant Korean-freaks. Not you two." my Kpop-hater-friend quickly said to cover it up and Jimin just shrugged and talked with her friend again. But I just know that they are now judging her. And I'm just thinking:

Was that really necessary? I mean, you don't just shout out really loud that you hate Koreans when you are in the presence of Koreans. And why would you say something like that anyway? I mean, you're surrounded by Kpop-fans. Why..Why...WHY??

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I think.....I vented out too much now, didn't I? xD I'm sorry you had to endure that~^^

And I have so much mistakes...but too lazy to correct them. Just....don't take note of them, okay? xD

I promise I'm not that mean but I was really frustrated. Now that I wrote everything down I'm more relaxed :D

THANK YOU FOR READING AND BYEBYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~

He is so hot and then he turns to be such a weirdo lol I love him <3