I want it all to end. I want to end. I want to die. I'm tired of pretending I am happy all the time. I'm sick of everything. I want it all to go away. I keep looking at knives and blades and think about slitting my wrist or my throat. I go in the shower and I think about using my towel to hang myself. Or throwing myself out my bedroom window. This isn't ing recent I've been battling these thoughts for years. And you know what I'm a ing failer. I know it my family knows it just about anyone who knows me in real life knows.

I WANT TO DIE I WANT IT ALL TO GO AWAY.

I can't tell my mom she would keep saying how can I do this to here. And the other day she asked if I was depressed in a really condesending tone. There is no one I can go to. And she thinks it has anything to do with her no it doesn't.

I'm so tired of everything...

I want the words every one told me growing up would go away.

Ugly

worthless

fat

disgusting

I hate you

no one wants you

better off with out you

go die

Piggy

Everything is your fault

No one will ever love you

over and over again I heard those words they wont go away.

NO ONE WHO REALLY KNOWS ME CARES.

Except one person how can I tell her I feel this way. When she tried so hard to make me feel beautiful. I'm sorry I can't believe you. I will only make you cry.