Thank You is NEVER Enough.

***For once, I am going to ask you to read all of this post and not tell you what you can skip to go to the important part because everything here is quite important, haha.  Sorry for this long post, though.  Please do read thoroughly.

 

Yuna here.

Yes…I know I don’t write often on here. Probably my third?  Well, um, mstyper wanted to have a page/post to explain a few things because she had a realization about what she’s going to explain below.  Even though I don’t write or have any writing-related for anything posted on here, I do see, from time to time, the huge support, love, and encouragement you all have given to mstyper.  I did kind of doubt the support at first, mainly because of her lacking abilities and because we both know there are better writers and authors on this site.  What I mean when I said that I doubted her support is not that I doubted any of you, but I questioned, “how can someone be emotionally touched over something someone does online?”  (meaning: don’t people just read and move on?  This is why I’m not a fan-fiction writer.  Well, partially why.)

You and your relationship with mstyper proved me wrong.

I wasn’t really there for her when she was “sorta” plagiarized because I didn’t think much about it (until she went off to write that long post and I read it.  Knowing mstyper, she expresses herself better with writing so I understood her feelings and point of view afterwards); however, I read it a few days later, I think, and saw all of the encouraging, supporting, and inspiring comments.  It really touched not only her heart but mine too, and I found it funny because I hardly interact with any of you guys (and I seriously didn’t think our story would even have this much love), yet you guys were there to not be quick to judge us, say otherwise, or even bash us for making a post.

We had a long talk afterwards and halfway through, we ended talking about you guys instead of how to deal with the assumed plagiarism (you know the result of it already).  Mstyper was really depressed and hurt, like many authors and writers whom have experienced it, and she was really going to abruptly finish the story by posting a new chapter with the summarized ending because of the reasons she had listed on the blog in relation to this incident (one: it’s her creation, two: it’s inspired from my personal life).

You may think I had stopped her someway, somehow, but that’s not the case.  It was really you guys.  If you’ve read that blog, you know that mstyper started writing fan fiction as writing is her passion so she writes for fun.  She did also hesitated (before making this account) due to her misconception of plagiarism (now, we have a clearer understanding, hahaha), but she chose to risk her creations to be in a society that shares the same interests as her.  She recalled her reason to write and combined with your guys’ supportive comments, she knew it was rude, wrong, and irresponsible to just stop.

That’s why she continued, and I guess I can safely say that in every incentive, inspiration, and reason for her to write a chapter, start a new story, or whatever it is that relates to fan fiction, you will always play a huge part in it.

Before I end my part, I just want to say wow, I did not expect anyone to find interest in what we’ve written so far because I have read other stories on here, with extremely much better grammar, writing, and plot, so I can’t help but compare and see that we (mstyper and I) have much, much, much to learn and grow before we can even humbly accept your praises that even in the future, we may still not be deserving of.  As of now, I shamefully ask for your guidance over mstyper because she’s the one who does more work than I do, even if she loves doing what she does.

It might be weird to hear—read?—this from me, but I’m blessed we have you with us.  I will like to apologize, although it’s super late, for having indirectly involved you guys in the plagiarism incident.  I hope we can continue to be a loving and understanding community that will blossom into a joyful, fun family.

Okay, this is all from me, and sadly, I’m not as inventive as mstyper, so I don’t have a parting phrase(?) to use, so I’ll stay original:  Goodbye and until next time, I hope to see you.

 

From mstyper

…I was hesitating to write this post because in real life, I’ve been personally, verbally attacked/confronted about this “aspect” of me by both close friends and family.  They had nicely implied that I’m fake (what I mean is, they didn’t say that I was fake because at the time, fake wasn’t really a trendy word to describe someone).  One of my close friends have said to me that she doesn’t trust my words of gratitude anymore whenever I say them, so I tend to become overly conscious with those kinds of words. They said I overused the words “thank you” and “sorry” and believe that I have come to say it without meaning it.  A very, very hurtful comment I remember, from another very, very close friend is, “Why do you keep saying them when you don't mean it?” 

We’re still good friends, but for that entire year, I tried my hardest to lessen those words around everyone, and especially her (you betcha, this was in High School).  But a year later, when I got into writing stories and always wrote “Thank you for reading…etc.” or if I’m late to a publication, “Sorry for publishing late!” I came to a conclusion that I cannot control what others think of me, so I should not let that be a reason to stop me from saying what I really want to say, and what I really feel. 

Also, when I made that realization, I was a bit disappointed that I didn’t tell my friends this when she said it to me (I was too dumbfounded to respond or ask at the time): I’m saying thank you because you gave me something.  The something she gave me was tissues, which I had asked for because it was on her side.  I said “thank you” like how anyone would’ve thanked someone for doing something asked of, yet she made it seem like I always say thank you.  I mean, it’s true that I do say “thank you” for trivial stuff, but it's common sense to thank people for the things they do to you, right? Anyway, the people whom have confronted me have said that I don’t need to thank them for these things, but to me, they’re not trivial.  Yes, I may seem conceited if I write this, but I want to thank someone for doing something for me.  I feel guilty and very burdened if I didn’t thank someone who took their time, effort, and patience to do something for me, especially if I didn’t ask for it.

As if the words “thank you” weren’t enough for my friends and family to confront me about, the next word was “sorry.”  Again, they said that I don’t need to say “sorry” when someone bumps into me, or when I bump into them, or when I accidentally touch another, etc, but I do say it for similar reasons as explained. Instead of someone doing something for me as above, it’s me who is unintentionally imposing on someone.  My sister was the one who mainly talked to me about this and it happened when I got my first car.  She told me straight up that if I were to get into an accident, the first thing she begged me to not say even if it’s become “a habit of mine,” is “sorry”.  I understand why—it’s so that I won’t look as if I’m accepting that I was the one at fault—but my “sorry” can have a different meaning to it.  It doesn’t necessarily have to imply that I was at fault. It can be implied that “I’m sorry this has happened.”

I know there are a lot of people who may say things they don’t mean, and sadly, it can also be for words of gratitude.  But I don’t mess or lie with these.  I became like this because my father, having emigrated from another country, constantly told me from young (since I am the only one born in America) that in order to become a respected person in general, I must always give and treat someone with the respect I would like back from others.  That, along with a few other wise quotes, resonate with me and I try to abide to it to a fault.  I’m not saying I’m this wonderful, kind-hearted, and naïve person.

No.  

I just want to say that I mean every word of gratitude, appreciation, and repent I write to you guys.  I know I say a lot of “Thank you’s” and “sorry’s”, but I honestly mean every part of it.  Sadly, because this is online and you guys can’t see me, I have no way of proving it, and I don’t mind you guys not believing me because it’s understandable.  Even if your perspective on me changes to feelings of dislike after reading this, I’m okay because, one: I’ve already explained my part.  Two: I can’t control what you think of me.  Three: although it’s going to hurt a bit, I’m going to do my best to not constrict my true self as I had done before.

With all of this explained, there’s a reason why I had to do this blog.

I published a few chapters today for Thanksgiving, and although I’ve already reached the fifties, it hit me that I have stick to writing “thank you for reading/commenting/NOT PLAGIARIZING IN ANY WAY/upvoting/subscribing” at the end of every chapter.  Before I go any further, I want to say this: I don’t copy and paste it from previous chapters.  I really, honestly, do type it all out over and over again, chapter to chapter, story to story (well, YIS: Our Virtual Family is where it really originated).  Yes, it’s easier and so much faster to copy and paste it, but to me, that’s not showing complete gratitude, even if you guys may not see it.  It makes me be able to confidently face you guys (not literally, but you know what I mean…right?  Lol) and write that I do these things with honest intentions and honest feelings.  I don’t have to lie behind the screen to make me “look” like this great person, which I am not, also.

Some of you might think that I’m just being humble, and that it’s a cover up for my fakeness, but once again, I’m going to stress this: by all means, you are free to believe and assume whatever suits you.  Text cannot decode tone, and since this isn’t verbally said to you, you only have the choice to read this in any way that it comes off to you, so I won’t hold any feelings against you.

I, however, will like to say this:

Please, please, please, please…if you have come to dislike or hate me after this post, hate only me and not my creations.  I’m not saying for you to continue supporting me by subscribing or still being subscribed, but please don’t bash or leave rude comments to me or my readers because of your assumptions about the type of person I am, or the type of person I have come across as.  I ask for your understanding and respect that if you simply do think I’m trying to be this person that you believe I’m not, then please exit out of this page, block me, or do all necessary actions to keep me out of your sight.  Like this quote, “life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it” (again, I grew up with quotes from my Dad, so I’m always uplifted and inspired by quotes).

Although this blog post seems like a rant of some sort, it’s actually not.  Below is today’s main point (as always, it takes forever for me to get to the main point, lol)

Although the words “thank you” and “sorry” are always written down at the bottom, positioned around the same place, attached to the same words, and written in the same, exact way, I want you to know that I type them letter for letter, word for word, space by space.  They may be little things that can be finished within five seconds, but I want you to know that these actions aren’t enough to express how thankful Yuna and I are.  I’ve written this before, and this is one of the mottos and insights I follow and believe: we got this far not because we had the talent or the skill or the creativity, but it’s mainly because we have supporters—YOU—whom have been there from the beginning or even just recently, and have been through with our ups and downs.  Even though we write those words all the time, at the same spot, and word for word, it’s never going to be enough for all that you’ve done, contributed, and given to us.

So for everything, THANK YOU very much (and many, infinite times more).

And I’m sorry if these words do come off as repetitive, useless, and meaningless.  These are not my intentions.

Thank you for reading this long (and dragging) post.  Thank you for understanding (and not judging).  Thank you for your patience (and cooperation and guidance). 

Lastly, but not least, thank you, for accepting our flaws.

Until next time, “read” you soon!

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sayumi_yuma
#1
I must thanks to both of you, because of your creation, I can read yamashi story and this is good story for me, make my day than just spend free time not do anything. And make Yamashi feel more alive than the reality, they both no interaction on public. Thank to your masterpiece, and sharing your through to us too.

Not just you, I always say 'thank you' and 'sorry' too, and one day on my senior high school time, my friend asked me too, 'don't say it repeatedly' like he/she 'bored' of those word. It's just like in he/she eyes, my word just something no meaning and I don't mean my word, because I always repeated it. It hurt me one, but I can't stop say that word because I really mind to say it, with what language or what way I say it. I really feel happy, someone help me or I really feel sorry if I make something wrong or make someone hurt. Don't stop your kind of aspect, because you really mean it, although the 'listeners' not feel the real meaning. Just do what you are.. Keep this habit of you... :)

And.. Again.. Thank you for all of your creation, sharing mind too. :)
ichigoainosuke
#2
Hi there, Yuna-san!!
Wow! It's such a great thing to 'read' you here! :D
Thank you for sharing your experience through this series.. m(_ _)m
Me as the reader from YamaShi version really think that both of you had made such a masterpiece in YamaShi fandom. Thank you for making the fandom keep alive m(_ _)m

Sana-san! Don't worry! I'm also always act like that, saying thank you and sorry even when the other people think it's not necessary.. but it's not only a habit, but also the way we really express what our heart says! So what's wrong w/ every 'thanks' and 'sorry'? Isn't it rude if we didn't say 'thanks' after having some help from other person, right? Isn't it rude to not say 'sorry' after do something bad to other people, right?
Please don't erase this kind habit of yours.. I believe there will a time when someone will really appreaciate you by saying those words.. :)

It's grateful to have both of you writing for this fandom.. maybe my thanks won't be enough to satisfy you, but I'm really mean it. I'm so happy to read this series, waiting for every update makes me excited..
So once again, hontou ni arigatou gozaimasu!!! m(_ _)m