so i am in a pickle and idk how to get out of it. imma need to tell you a story in order for you to understand- sobs. 

so imma use idols instead of their real names. XD so my best friend is amber. i've known her for about 6 or 7 years-- and i met another friend through her and her name is joy. so we all hung out at amber's house all the time. one day, joy brought over a boy named jimin. i said "woah- who is that? he's soooo cute." she said, "isn't he? don't let that cuteness fool you. he cheated on me so many times." i was a little shocked but i shrugged it off. so he started talking to me at her house while we were all drinking. i didn't say much- but i kept the conversation going. he came over to the house probably 3 more times at the most after that. nothing out of the ordinary happened- about a month or two after not seeing him, he finds me and messages me on a social media site. he tells me he's been asking joy for my number forever and that he thought i was really cute, but she refused. so i was like "i don't see why you can't have it--" so i gave it to him anyway bc it was easier for me to talk to him through text rather than social media. he asked me when i was free and i told him i was free now and he wanted to go see a movie but didn't want to see it alone. so i was like, "okay, i can go with you." he started complimenting me and saying how he can't wait to see me, so i said "you're acting like it's a date." but i said it jokingly- but he took it there and.. otl so i couldn't find his house so i made us miss the movie. : c so he took me out to dinner instead. after that, he took me to his house and he said he didn't want to iron his uniform for work and so i said i would do it since we missed the movie bc of me- so he said "if you can beat me in video games, you don't have to iron it." so we played mortal combat x. and i kicked his . XD and then he complained about how he lost to me and then he randomly kissed me- ohmygod he is a good kisser. : < sobs. but so.. i didn't think it would be a big deal since joy said she would never get back with him again since he hurt her so much. otl and it was a loooooong time ago since they were together. since they're friends again, i thought they were cool- i really started to like jimin a lot- he would always text me saying things like "i miss you. you're all i think about. etc." after i had seen jimin twice, joy messaged me saying "are you trying to get with my ex?" i could feel the anger. otl i couldn't lie to her. so i told her the truth. she got really upset and asked me why i did it. i didn't know how to answer. i felt so bad bc i felt like i did something wrong, but.. otl she told me it's either her and amber or jimin. i still don't know what to do- i spent the night with jimin on his birthday and i ended up waking up at 2am and started throwing up- i was really surprised when he came into the bathroom and held my hair and gave me some water. he let me have one of his shirts bc i got puke on mine- otl and he drove me to the ER at 2:30am. i told him to go back home after he dropped me off bc he had work at 6am, but he wouldn't go home. he left eventually but he couldn't sleep. otl he came and visited me in the icu after i woke up and said things like "i have never been so worried about someone in my life. stop being so stubborn and listen to me next time." he hates hospitals so i was surprised when he came to see me- cries. he left and saw me again the next day and he told me how much he liked me, etc. he said "i have to go now, okay?" so he left- less than a minute later he walks through the door again and says "i missed you too much." sobs violently. i like him so much. i have never liked someone so much. i've never had a boyfriend before and i'm 20 years old. otl he just seems so perfect- he's so sweet and cute and everything i need. i just don't want to lose my friends- they've already unfriended me on all social media sites. and i'm so scared i'll lose them for good. :' c pls gimme some advice. ㅠㅠ