if you think i am angry im not

i am hurt.

hurt beyond what you can even imagine

i felt useless and worthless

it's like im just a back up plan when things dont go your way

and when things did go your way, you throw me out 

this

am i really that worthless to you?

dont i mean something to you for just a bit?

dont give that i am just overreacting that you always tell me because this is not childish

you pushed me away without even considering of how will i feel

yes i am posting this because i know you will see this

because i dont have the heart to talk to you or even see you