In January 2013, it was like endless haze. SM company turned down Kris’ all personal activities without apparent reasons, they only let him participate in endless long-intensive business activities. During that time he quickly worn thin, everyone was able to see that his condition was very bad. Although he had said he’s alright to his fans, “Don’t worry I’m fine.” But his cover up was getting more and more powerless. Even when he was alone in the dorm, SM also did not allow him go to the hospital, resulting on his illness delays. I cannot imagine the days he spent to be alone in his dorm room, watching other members participating in their activities, only he himself had nothing to do. I would like to ask the young boy, when you looked out of the window, what were you thinking?

January 27, 2013, I thought it would be the last time I saw his face.
Now think about it, we were miserable when we couldn’t see him for two months; but this kind of life, he lived through for five whole years.

January 29, 2013, This was just a beginning. After that, more than two months of defaming had kicked off.

Obviously he was expelled by SM, but rumors were saying that he did not go back and wanting to quit. Malicious comments like waves rushing towards him, his future has been shaky, but even he was in the most center of the storm, the most wronged and sad man had not once defended himself. He just quietly give Nini (his fans) a New Year blessing.

[Fanqin-s Happy New Year~ Always be together]

Those who used to keep saying that they like him, in order to protect their own idols, they chose to attack him. Using most vicious words to slander him, passing by his Baidu bar every day to wash the board there with more than a dozen of negative posts. No one defended for him. Everyone was waiting for the game, which was to compete who was the one who gives him the deepest stab with their knifes,to start. Nini’s all clarify were all useless, the moment they tried they would be submerged in the avalanche of negative sound.

During that time we almost couln’t sleep well, everyday we were worried for him whether he would encounter any misfortune. On that day, he updated Renren at 6am. I wonder if this little koala who loves to sleep late at that time was like us keep staying awake? 

He put in all his blood and dreams to contribute to this team and this company, he never a wrong thing, why should he suffer these?

[I miss you very very much, I really do. Waiting might be painful but it might be joyful too. Face every tomorrow with courage. My dear, I am always here. Good morning.. You who I always adore and the one that I couldn’t give up on.]

March 13, 2013, the company did not respond to him. Because he was worried that he might delay the group’s schedule in Thailand, he decided to buy air tickets back to Korea with his own money. That day at the airport, someone said to him, “Kris, please don’t ever disappear again, okay?” He said nothing and kept silent.

A whole 17 days after his return to Korea, SM didn’t let him back to the dorm. He and his mother were living in a hotel. Just because he had no rights at that situation, or he’s a foreigner, he was trampled upon as everyone pleased, and let the higher rank people to control him like a puppet?

During this time, SM spread wanton rumors on the Internet, controling public opinion. In fact it was the company who wouldn’t let him come back, but to the public, he claimed that it’s he himself didn’t come back, causing him be hated by everyone. They even asked other members pretended to be recording new MV to put pressure on him. Using experienced PR on a young man who had no background, no back up and he who never defend himself, what’s the conscience in this?

March 30, 2013, after he experienced hardships, he was back with unhealed wounds.

No matter the people are cold or warm, you still have to grow up. What you did will sure be exposed one day to prove to be worthwhile.

Some of the new fans do not understand why are we so inconsistent and sensitive over some jokes. It’s because he never cared about the pros and cons, always tries his best and always put himself in the end. However, what he did wasn’t paid off well.

It has nothing to do with other stars, it’s only because he suffers too much losses, we just want to protect him, love him, dote on him. Those new fans do not know what was deliberately ignored were his good sides and his kindness, all of these should not be forgotten.

[Caption: “Why are the group photos only has 11 members, where’s Kris?” “He went to buy entrance tickets for them……”]

The one who was having fever, carried luggage for his other teammates ; the one who’s always generous in treating everyone ; the teenager who cooked for his Chinese members to cure homesick; the one who’s always at the front or at the back of the group; the one who always reminds the members to beware of the escalators ; the one who silently holding the table for the members who are dancing on the table while some of them are dancing in front of the cameras; the one who tried to negotiate with customs with manner when s had problems with their luggage; the one who never forget to comfort his other members when he was the one who’s sobbing;

[He was buying smoothie at surf city. He drank a bit and then he saw s and managers were coming over, so he used his own money to buy them drinks. I remembered he said in Korean that this is tasty~]

[This guardian who’s always silent and hides from the crowd; This guardian who’s always at the front or at the back of the queue when they are in airports; This guardian who’s not good in pouring his heart out to s; This guardian who will be in dazed when the members thank him; This guardian who always uses his own way to protect his brothers; This guardian, he’s actually just a young man born in 1990…..]

[At Hong Kong, he spent his last few dollars on buying bubble tea for his brothers. He had no money to buy one for himself. In the end, he was too thirsty so he took one sip from theirs.]

[It was raining that time and he isn’t waterproof. However, he let out the umbrella to other members, leaving himself to hide from the raindrops with his own hand]

He still had his silly smile on even after being beaten with gas sticks severely on his head. When he were recording a show, he was worried that someone would be dangerous so he lent his hand to that person. He used to see him as his own younger brother. However when he was having his crisis, he was indifferent and when termination case came up, he only stood out to spit out his ‘disappointments’;  he even liked a few negative Weibo posts about Kris, and in the end, this ‘good brother’ made the decision, Kris has never cancel following anyone of them.

[Kris bought a lot of snacks for the members on his way back to SM. At the entrance, Tao walked up to Kris and opened the bags. He then found a box of sushis. He took it and just walked away back into the practice room.]

[There’s a female grabbed Kris, leaving red scratching marks. Luhan came out first, Kris protecting the others and let Tao to come out next, then Xiumin, Chen and Yixing. Kris was protecting them so strictly…. In the conclusion: It was messy and Wufan was injured.]

[Kris is like a big brother.. He became bodyguard for Junmyeon. Without assistance from the security guards and managers, he walked with junmyeon to the outside.. junmyeon was hiding behind him, looking very happy. There was a lot of fans at the airport, a lot of people fell down too.]

Wu Yifan, from now on, my eyes and my heart will only recognize one person which is you. I’m still grateful to have all of the goodwill and companionship from you, yet I still cannot be as open-minded and tolerant as you.

May 2013, During WOLF comeback, his reticent, silent and quiet side does not seem to exist. We couldn’t guess what he was suffering. On stage, his movements were vivid, completed with his few parts, just like a stubborn young wolf.

Behind the stage, he always stands in the corner, with only few words.

On radio program which is more than an hour , he will patiently help people who don’t understand the Korean manuscript to explain the meaning, from beginning to end, he only said, “Hello, everyone, I’m KRIS.”
Fans were distressed but can’t do anything for him, they can only go to Korea, just to tell him that baby don’t be afraid, we are here with you.

In June 2013, he returned China to record a program, after more than a month, this was the first time to see his smile from the heart.

July 2013, Growl comeback. The album’s presale surpassed ten thousand pieces but what’s in return was less than one minute of his voice (including the background vocals). When “There is a Place” released, someone joked that this three minutes of the song add up is much more than what he sang in the past two years.The bitterness in this, only he could understand.
In the Korean version of the MV, it retained the other 11 individual shots, only Kris’ individual shots was cut off.
TV station logo blocked his face 42 times ……
He rejected a lot of movies invitations and high-end fashion solicitation cooperation which are not group related works. In the name of Wu Yi Fan, he offended a lot of great people and the media.
He faced malicious news indifferently, but the company obstructed his pathway to movies for 6 years. While other members joined filming for movies, the company issued a declaration saying Kris will not accept any invitation for movies.
This is what we get after all the contributions. Ridiculous, pathetic.
We decided to fight back. But when other members’ fans got the company’s response, what we got was SM intensified suppression and exclusion on Kris.

In fact, he knows no one will speak for him, the company that he devoted six years of youth and even his health will never say a word for him, he has always been alone, he only has groups of upright silly fans, just like him. That night he saw the light board lighting up all over the place for him, he choking back tears and said, “Thank you for staying, meigeni.”

November 6, 2013, his 23rd birthday. It was a recording day for Showtime. Since before that they celebrated the other members’ birthday on the show, and the company planned special episodes for them, he also even bought valuable birthday gift for them from his own pockets. So we were sure that they will give him a birthday special episode. On November 6, that day someone saw him holding a dog plushie, the fans thought it was his birthday gift. But after broadcast only we found out from the beginning to the end no one mentioned his birthday, not even a simple happy birthday. The doll was bought by himself.

He said dog are the most loyal, and they will not betray and abandon you.

We know he likes eating cakes, so the fans bought dozens of cakes for him. However, SM blocked all the cakes and gifts without a sole reason, and he was not allowed to give fans a message on the official website. This had never happened before in the other member’s birthday. Each member will hold a birthday party with fans, except for him. His party was inexplicably canceled by the company, even when he had no schedule to attend. Our patience only ended up in exchange for the SM intensified malicious treatment. But we were in the passive position, we didn’t even have the courage to interrogate. Wronged, distressed, uncomfortable, yet we could do nothing, because we were worried that it will make his situation even more difficult.
No blessing and a birthday cake, no love letter mail, it was the second birthday we accompanied him through.
After more than a month, he finally allowed to update the fanboard; 

April 2014, other members’ fans light boards were everywhere, but there was a signboard for him. Other signboards were alright, only his fans’ signboards were forced to be taken down without reasons, rudely ripped off by security and confiscated. 

May 11, 2014, during 365, no one noticed him that he was holding back his tears.

During the end of the stage, he bowed down for a long time. Later I came to understand that he was in the name of Kris to bid goodbye to us. He knew that when he made that decision, someone will choose to leave, so that night, perhaps that was the last time he sang to those people. 

However, after Kris’ termination of contract with SM, SM had claimed all these China’s commercial activities are not subject to Chinese law. Wu Yifan filed the lawsuit in May 2014, while the SM and Media Asia China were prepared signing in September. So SM has no right to interfere in Wu Yifan’s works in China, but now they falsely accuse him and sue him because they know might lose, they just want cause troubles on his acting career in China. 
However, even faced with such people, he only responded with “Thanks for all the voices, bless everyone,” and no other words and any explanation.
After termination, he never bad-mouth anyone. Including the “brothers” that he treated well with his heart, but during the time that he needed them the most they only stabbed him from behind. As for SM, even if they used dirty tactics on him, he’s still grateful. “Anyway, thanks for bringing me up.” He said, “No matter how people are, I wish I could treat everyone with my kindness.”

Everyone says how lucky you are, everybody says that being your fans give you more peace of mind, but how difficult the pathway you go, we know everything more than anyone else. All you’ve got now are of all your blood, sweat and hard work, not a shred of luck.

In August 2014, his first appearance after returning home. That day he was firm with sharp eyes. Like soldiers, wearing armor, running on the front line full with blood. He was like the noble Dragon, even if there’s deep swamps, rivers of blood, he’s still proud raised up his head.

November 6, 2014, another year of birthday, the mood has long been different. Although it was his most difficult time, his schedule wasn’t full and the cash flow was not easy, he has no contacts and no professional team, they don’t what to do, he did all on his own. He was always smiling to us and said that I’m fine, thank you. When he was watching the blessing video from fans all over the world, he choked back tears while had his back facing us.
The host asked fans what words to say to him, the audience shouted “Happy Birthday.” This simple sentence, we owed you for the whole year. From now on, we’ll not allow anyone to bully you, insult you.

A lot of people think that he is very lucky, a young man with high popularity, rich, handsome and with impeccable appearance, has a rising career and a group of diehard fans. But in fact, he actually has no confidence that he ought to have.

He had put all his passion and sincerity on SM, and even bet on on his own future. Since his debut, he more than once begged the company to believe in him. The result had hurt his heart, also hurt everyone who loves him. So this time, he is more than willing to hold his destiny in his own hands, although his future will be harder than others, but at least he can control his future direction, by himself.

As he said, life is not easy. So no matter how many difficulties and obstacles in the future, please give him a little more encouragement. Tell him how good he is, tell him how much he makes you feel proud. 
The one who uses goodwill to face with malicious people; The one who put all the burdens on his shoulders, this little silly who laughs like a kid. 

The future is still far, please stay with him all the way.
We made a promise, and “always be together.”

The way to go is not easy, finally time to say goodbye. Kris, you did well, and now the rest, please leave them to Wu Yi Fan.

May 11, 2014, we promised you a light board sea, it belongs to him and each of you, the perfect curtain call.

Goodbye, Kris.
Thank you.

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