something about let's not fall in love is making me reflect on my own pass relationships. maybe its because of the little age difference i have with bigbang that our life experiences are similar..i dunno too.

i haven't dated a lot. a real relationship once and a few flings. there were often times when i felt the flings were real but nothing actually advanced.

but i have no one to blame except myself.

why? 

because i'm a person who is scared of committing and my friends keep telling me that i overprotect my heart but i honestly dont know how to unprotect my heart. the excitement when first falling in love is really intoxicating that you never want the spark to end but i'm not a person who knows how to keep the love alive. maybe my love has an expiration date, i dunno.

so i always end up telling the guy let's not fall in love or let's just be friends.

but in the end only i am left alone because no,they dont want to be just friends so why stick around...